My darling husband passed away 3 months ago - cancer. Our daughter was 6 weeks old when he died. I'm struggling to accept he's gone and have pretty much been in a daze. It doesn't seem real at all. I've been focusing on our baby and trying to keep distracted but I'm not sure that is the right thing to do. Its becoming more often that it suddenly hits me and the tears flow. I'm scared of what the future holds - we have wider family around us but I'm now solely responsible for bringing up a child - all our plans and dreams that we had when found out we were having a baby have all gone - we were so excited. I am so pleased to have her but sad he doesn't get to share in seeing her grow up. I'm also scared of something happening to her - after seeing my husband die I'm scared she will get sick and I will lose her. Or I will get sick and she will be left without either of us. When is his death really going to hit me? Right now I have crying sessions and then stop and carry on looking after her but I'm scared it's going to hit me hard all of a sudden.
Friends/relatives keep telling me that at least I have my daughter, I say I'm so lonely without him and they say I now have my daughter. As if she is replacing him. They say to be strong for her - I don't want to be strong. My best friend is dead.
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Finding it hard to accept DH's death
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theclockticksslowly · 17/12/2013 02:06
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