My Nan has died. The beautiful lady who had brought me up and raised me and as an adult stood by me and supported me. She was the kindest lady in the world and everyone who knew her adored her. I have so much I wanted to say to her. So much to tell her. How much I love her. How much she means to me. I wish I had known and could of been there. She was all alone. She looked peaceful after death like she wasn't struggling any more. For this I am so thankful. But for me and my family I am gutted. We have lost our rock, our glue. It's so empty a great big empty hole. I'm not looking for replys I just wanted to write it down somewhere I wouldn't feel daft admitting it to. To the outside world I'm carrying on, funeral arranging as well as normal things. Inside I'm empty and totally devastated.
Thank you for all your kind words. Today has been up and down, am ok when I'm busy and with people it's when I'm alone and at night it feels overwhelming. Funeral to sort and things. My nan, well what can i say. The perfect nan, warm, kind, caring, always worrying about us. Loved cooking and baking and looking after people. Loved my grandad so much had spent their lives together. Full of wise sayings and good advice. Always a listening ear and always so interested in what we were all up to. God I miss her already.