I'm so sorry to do this, but I just don't know how to cope any more. I'm alone with a five month old for up to sixteen hours a day. I have no confidence and can't even imagine being able to go outside for anything other than appointments, and I spend all day praying for my son to sleep. I never manage to do anything, everything is always a mess and I can't stand being this disorganised, and everything's just wrong. Nothing feels right, and I keep reading about or hearing from people how wonderful and amazing this time is and I hate it. I hate it. I feel like a failure constantly, I'm never tidy or clean, my body feels like it belongs to a stranger and I can't stop crying. Medication isn't working; I don't know what else I'm supposed to do or try. I don't want to wake up in the morning. I'm too anxious to sleep properly, and the only thing that gets me to sleep is hoping that sleep will be the end of all of it, that I won't have to wake up again. I feel like I've tried everything and nothing, nothing is changing. I don't know what to do.
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