Hi there - am new here and this is my first post but I really feel like I need some advice.
DS2 is currently 27 days old. I have a DD who is almost 4 and a half. Since having my son I began by feeling nothing but love. I am now very scared by what I currently feel. I am very much up and down but the main overriding feeling is that I just don't want to have to deal with him anymore. I feel as though I resent him for upsetting this perfect easy life I had with my DH and DD. I am finding him and his waking in the night very hard work and this is just adding to the resentment. I feel as though I have made a massive mistake in having him.
I have spoken with my HV who is organising for me to speak to a counsellor but won't know when that'll be until at least tomorrow. I had a major meltdown this morning, was just sobbing for an hour and a half. Just feel liek I want to claw out of me the way I feel. All that said all I want is the feelings I am having just to go away and I just want to feel the massive feeling of love I had when I had my daugher.
I should point out that he isn't the most difficult baby in the world. He can be unsettled especially when feeding and directly after (formula feeding). Took him to a cranial osteopath on friday who told me that he had a significant strain in his neck due to the way he was born (short labour, kiwi cup which the doctor used like he was playing tug of war - oh and he was on the bigger side at 9lb 3oz) so am hoping this will sort him out and make him more settled.
My daughter was an extremely easy baby - she fed, drank all her milk and slept easily in between. She is still like a dream child. If i could bottle her up and sell her I'd be a trillionaire by now! Wondering if I feel like this because he's not doing what she did?
I guess what I want to know is if this is normal at this stage 4 weeks post baby or whether I'm spiralling into post natal depression, which is my biggest fear.
Sorry for the lengthy post!
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Brockilly · 07/08/2011 12:35
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