I've been signed off work for nearly 2 months with depression. I'd been struggling for several months but broke down and was having serious thoughts of suicide which was what triggered me getting signed off.
I know I probably am being unreasonable but it feels like my work are trying to make being off work more stressful than being in work, so that I'll go back. I've co-operated with everything they've asked, which so far has included 3 different telephone assessments, and a home visit from management. Each one causes me a lot of anxiety and worry and I end up feeling worse afterwards than I did before. I know they have a duty of care and I know they also want to make sure I'm not pulling a fast one. But they've known me several years and my doctor has signed me off, so I do feel like all the "care" is just pressuring me to come back.
After the latest one I feel like total crap, guilty for not working and worried about what'll happen if I can't cope. If I rush into going back before I'm ready it'll be the worst thing, but I feel like they're saying "enough now, you're not dying, get back to work".
I ended up feeling utterly hopeless and wanting to end things. I've not done anything stupid and I don't think that I will, but it's so upsetting to feel like this!
Aibu to want work to leave me alone? They're supposedly trying to help but actually just making me feel worse!
Aibu to just want to give up though? I just can't imagine going back to work and being able to cope, I can't afford to go part time or to give up work (never claimed benefits, don't feel like I'm sick enough to get anything anyway).
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harderandharder2breathe · 13/07/2016 20:18
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