My first started thread so please be gentle.
6 weeks ago I started at a Big 4 consultancy in quite a niche area (not Audit, Tax etc).
This was a big move for me - I'm 32 and had spent the last 8 years within a dot.com company, most recently managing my own team in said niche area (i.e. not a consultant before). I felt at the stage where I wanted a new challenge, and was amazed to even land an interview with this company, let alone a job - plus sizable pay rise. .
I expected to have a difficult transition period, knowing that these companies can be quite demanding and have high expectations of new joiners, plus adapting to a consultancy environment, different corporate culture etc etc, but felt like the role would offer me the chance to learn a lot about my industry and the name on the CV would be good as well.
But now I feel like I've made a MASSIVE mistake.
I feel in waaaaaaaaay over my head and vastly inferior to all these bright young things (until now, I thought I was a reasonably high achiever), and am getting very little help or support from anyone - my director is a genius (truly!) but doesn't really seem to do "listening" or "support" when it comes to people under his management.
Workwise, I feel between a rock and a hard place - either I am sitting doing nothing, or being thrown into things I'm not equipped to do. I feel like I'm either playing in the paddling pool or being chucked in the deep end, IYSWIM - no one is helping me swim at all! The bits and pieces of work I've done so far have got some positive feedback, but that's quite small fry stuff really.
I hate all this emphasis on "networking" and "building yourself as a brand" - I can't bear networking (am quite shy) and have to force myself to do it each time! And all the buzzwords ("granularity", "boiling the ocean" etc) that people here use in a non-ironic sense . And am dreading the day they throw me in at the deep end in front of a client, and I end up making a total tit of myself for total lack of any training (none at all - bar generic induction) or clue what I'm doing here...
I feel like I need to make it a year here for this to be for any greater good and not look a quitter on my CV, but there's a nagging voice saying to start looking again and get the hell out as soon as possible...
I guess this is less of an AIBU and more a plea for a bit of objective advice. I know I am lucky to have landed a job like this, but in all honesty I'm wondering now whether for the first time I have bitten off more than I can chew here....
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LadyShirazz · 16/09/2015 13:51
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