I had intended to send my DS to a very nice private school, one that he had a place for because I was organised enough to get is name down the moment he was conceived. My dh also applied for the local state primary. We got a place in the local school and I actually thought it was much nicer than the private one. So off we went with the amazing free school.
Now, over the years I've gone from being the confident and slightly obnoxious woman to a very quiet and awkward wall flower. My husband who hadn't noticed this change volunteered me to go around London collecting raffle prizes for the Childrens Christmas Fair.
...I have dropped off letters, made phone calls, tweeted and approached every local business and NO ONE wants to give me any kind of donation. Last year, the prizes were amazing (looking through the list) and this year I have nothing to show except the kindle my husband is giving me for Xmas. I do have a partner, who seems to be able to get businesses to donate who have already said no to me.
My children already see me as a shit mummy because:
- I have a funny accent to everyone else (I'm from Texas)
- I'm fat
- I don't bake or bring anything to the cake sales because I'm allergic to eggs, milk, nuts and gluten.
- I don't volunteer to go on trips because I work.
- I can't make friends with the school mummies because I'm generally dead in the face whenever I see them. (sometimes due to it being the morning, sometimes due to botox, or sometimes due to no makeup)
AIBU to think that my children were hoping I could do this ONE thing and pull it off excellently to cover my other shortfalls? I know my husband was.
the mothers that know I'm having a difficult time have been lovely and have gone out and found gifts