Just had our first DD 3.5wks ago. A few days ago me and DH celebrated our anniversary, I asked him randomly -and not expecting the answer he gave- if he had been happy the whole time, he said three years ago he worried he wasn't ready for commitment and had doubts! I was floored as I never knew. We since got married and planned children leading to DD, but I can't help shake this feeling of inadequacy that at one point he thought he'd prefer to be single that be with me, eventho he didn't choose that. I suspect pregnancy hormones at play and my feelings made worse by him coming nowhere near me sexually when I was pregnant - he said it freaked him a bit. AIBU to feel so inadequate and sad? He says I am but I can't help it. <img border="0" src="/emo/te/9.gif" alt="hmm">