Good luck! Don't give up, but if you - don't beat yourself up. It's just one of those things that is so hugely personal, there's no hard and fast rule at all with quitting.
I tried everything and hated all of the aids. I even had the electronic cigarettes - which to be honest, were the best of all of them - but even stopped using those because I didn't get the smoke in my throat sensation (so gross!). I had been smoking longer than I had not been, and that really depressed me. For so long, I had loved smoking. I also habitually smoked....other things....and I was convinced I would never get out of its grasp. Or that it would be really hard, I'd hate giving up, and I'd long for it for the rest of my life.
DH and I were approaching TTC. In all other areas, we're health freaks. I have green super drinks, won't consume anything man made or processed, think bread is evil incarnate etc. It didn't make any sense that we both smoked.
This Christmas I had a week or so off work. I knew it takes about two weeks to break a habit or make a new one. I knew the addiction, really, was to the routine - the smoke with the coffee on the way to work, with colleagues at 11am etc. During my time off, I left my cigarettes at home - just telling myself I wasn't quitting. I'd smoke at home.
I don't know what happened, but I just stopped. I'm still a bit in shock. For about two weeks over Christmas, I had maybe one or two a day. I haven't smoked anything for about three weeks now. I still go out for fresh and chat with my colleagues but I have zero desire for a smoke. I don't think about it all. DH had a smoke the other night to help him sleep....I went crazy because the smell was so awful.
I really, really could not say what has happened but I do know...I want a baby so, so, so badly. I don't recall a conscious "it's the cigs or a baby" struggle but maybe my body just said - fuck it, you're not doing it, so we will.
You just really, really have to want to - to want to stop or want something that means no smoking more than you want to smoke. Really, really best of luck and don't sweat it if you smoke - I quit so many times, over and over - for like a day each time! It was torture. So don't beat yourself up - it's the hardest addiction because it's a habitual addiction. The nicotine is out of your body in a few days but the psychological addiction stays for ages.