i was sitting in church (singing in the choir) the other day, enjoying the whole feeling of the season, that many of us can find a bit of hope and joy if we probe hard enough into ourselves to be thankful for what we've got, despite all the year's feelings of "soon will come the cross" sadness and worry (much of it particularly obvious in the number of death notices every week in a congregation where the average age must be 85).
I resolved to carry the feelings that It Really Is All All Right back to my homeland for Christmas.
But in the glaring heat of the weather and the glaring blaze of Mum's pointless negative cattiness, Dad's spineless agreeing with her and vicious bitchiness, my Mum and my sister going on like selfish princesses, BIL being a selfish lazy sod, niece being a total brat, etc...... I seem to have lost the feeling that it really all is all right. I'm trying to make excuses related to their evident inability to read people, their evident alexithymia - but actually it all just looks like a mixture of selfishness and affluenza. The knot of worry in my stomach just grows and grows - they're vile now, what will they be like as they get less able to cope?
Does anyone else hate Christmas this much?
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to have reverted to unconstructive loathing of my family, instead of the serenity i had hoped for?
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Anna1976 · 26/12/2011 04:08
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