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Found out that DH has been sending messages on Adultwork for years. Gutted and so unsure of what to do/believe

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SoUnsureNow Tue 18-Sep-12 16:24:30

This morning, my bus to work didn't turn up. We live rurally and another wasn't due for over two hours, so I went back home to look up the online train timetable for an alternative. I picked up DP's iPad from the kitchen table - and the screen was open to a message inbox on Adultwork, an advertising site for sex-work and escorting. It was DH's account. There were possibly 50 or so sent messages in there, dating back to late 2006 (a year before we got together) and right up to some dated only last week. Even more sickeningly, some of them were titled 'Bareback?', so this is obviously what he's been asking for. I couldn't read the actual messages, the account had automatically timed out so I could just see the last page viewed/inbox home.

When he got out of the shower I asked him what he was playing at. He claims that it's all him just messing around - that he gets bored working from home and being on his own all day, so he created a profile and sends the odd message on and off to "create a bit of fun and excitement" for himself during the day. He likes the anticipation of asking for a meet (escort appointment, I suppose?) with a special request and then waiting to see what the woman he's messaged replies to his request. He swears that he's never, ever bought sex, has never once met up with any of the women he messages during our relationship, would never put our relationship or my health at risk by having sex with women from Adultwork.

When I'm a bit bored at work, I might go and watch a funny video or two on Youtube or read the news on the BBC website. I don't create profiles on sex-buying sites/dating sites and message people to see what they send back.

I asked him to log me in to the account so I could read the messages he's been sending and receiving. I just wanted to see whether there was anything really incriminating there, like actual arrangements ot appointments, or post-appointment messages which would make it clear he's been buying sex. He refused, saying that even if there was nothing of that sort there, I'd still just think what I wanted to think.

Even though him saying this makes part of me almost certain that I'd find exactly what I think is there, my gut still believes him that he was just messing around online and hasn't ever taken it further. I don't know which is most likely. I don't know whether my 'gut' is just trying to get me to protect what I have rather than believe the worst.

Please hold my hand. I've been a mess all day. I don't have any family up here and not even one friend and not even an acquaintance, really - we relocated several hundred miles away from where I call 'home' last year, when DH was promoted: I sold my single-girl flat to help buy our house, packed in my (good, well-paid) job, left my friends and family behind. I have nowhere to go if I decide it's over. My job now is several paygrades below my old one and I can't afford to pay the mortgage on our house plus the rent on a new flat/even a room for myself.

I almost wish I hadn't seen what I've seen. I keep on thinking how could it happen, my bus is usually so reliable, why did it have to be AWOL today?! Stupid, I know. Our relationship is great - I'd have said near-perfect. We have a lovely home and a pretty carefree lifestyle. We rarely argue, and then only short rows about domestic or silly stuff. We'd decided to start TTC in the next couple of months. We still have sex most days: he can't claim that he sends sexy messages because he needs an outlet for his sex drive.

That's all, really.

TheAccidentalExhibitionist Thu 15-Nov-12 17:13:08

These recent posts actually give me the creeps. Amazing how many people were looking for Adultwork and came across this thread. How popular is this site?
Where to start??
Firstly
Hubert, if you decide to throw away your relationship based on a sexual transaction, then there is more wrong in your relationship than you're admitting to
umm yes, your DP is a lying cheating scumbag who doesn't respect you. I would say that's a serious problem.
Even worse that you say basically that ignorance is bliss? Women should put up with it??
I think you are a repulsive human being to have so little respect for women.

Littleblue Thu 15-Nov-12 17:22:57

Applauds fromesme I think this thread , as its in google , is attracting men who feel they can somehow justify such appalling behaviour on behalf of the OP's dh... best of luck chaps... now off you trot back to the fapping platforms.

AnyFucker Thu 15-Nov-12 17:40:28

Whenever I need reminding about how a minority of men are really shit I simply come and read a thread like this.

Littleblue Thu 15-Nov-12 17:41:12

claps again grin

Littleblue Thu 15-Nov-12 17:49:32

Oh and one more thing.... even if this chap (or any of you users of "WG's) DID use protection... its never 100% , against herpes for example... which is extremely common , and condoms do not offer reliable protection from... echoing previous posters who have retorted in the same vein as I have , but more eloquently... no , its not "acceptable" in a normal loving and intimate relationship , to use contact/swingers sites... I have used dating sites in the past , and I find it f***ing depressing how many marrieds use the internet to swing their dicks... I come across as a ball breaker no doubt...no bloody wonder is it really !? Once told one gent that if the grass really looked greener on the other side , then clearly he needed to contemplate tending his own...and to f* off......

Charbon Thu 15-Nov-12 17:58:59

I've hesitated to post because it further bumps what was a dormant support thread, but as there's just been another post, have decided I will.

I wish there was a way of this site closing some or all threads to prevent further posts, but other posters need to be aware that threads like this aren't randomly googled by sexual inadequates. Unfortunately there are punter review sites out there which flag up Mumsnet threads and a bunch of lowlife users come over here to goad and attention-seek.

This thread was started by someone in distress and like other respondents that came afterwards to share their stories, keeping this thread alive and engaging with the inadequates just feeds their attention-seeking and can cause even more upset to the OP and others in her situation.

Just ignore.

Whatsmyproblem Thu 15-Nov-12 18:07:48

I think there is something very wrong in the head with men who can be emotionally detached enough to pay a person to pretend to be into them sexually and not care.

If I was with someone who I knew wasn't sexually into me but was faking it because I was paying them, I would feel really gross about it.

To not give a shit means you have a bit of a screw loose imo.

Whatsmyproblem Thu 15-Nov-12 18:08:37

Sorry Charbon. Just completely ignored your advice there!

I've said my bit now.

SebastiansWorld1 Thu 15-Nov-12 18:29:45

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Littleblue Thu 15-Nov-12 18:36:21

Pathetic.

SebastiansWorld1 Thu 15-Nov-12 18:40:09

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Littleblue Thu 15-Nov-12 18:45:11

I am not going to engage with a Troll.

OP , I hope you have found some resolution to such a traumatic discovery in your relationship...I have nothing else to add.

WrathdePan Thu 15-Nov-12 18:45:11

Crumbs. Sometimes on MN I feel like a 10yr old who has just stumbled on stuff I shouldn't be seeing.

fwiw OP I wouldn't believe a word of his 'version'.

AnyFucker Thu 15-Nov-12 18:45:28

Here I see another scenario where locking a thread would be entirely appropriate. It is solving no purpose now except to give inadequate fucks a platform.

WrathdePan Thu 15-Nov-12 18:46:21

hi AF.

good idea. Off to get some eye rinse.

AnyFucker Thu 15-Nov-12 18:48:07

I liked that thread-locking feature when it was employed recently. There is no fun for the "googling" inadequates then. They will have to go play elsewhere.

ObscuredByClouds Thu 15-Nov-12 19:08:32

I agree. I'm totally against thread locking as a rule but I think this one warrants it.

OP, it is not the normal nature of a man to cheat on his wife in any way, shape or form. When a man chooses to commit to a woman he is choosing not to have sex with anyone else. I just wanted to reiterate that point and send you some more support.

TheReturnOfBridezilla Thu 15-Nov-12 19:10:02

My oh has never paid for sex. Women actually like him. grin

nkf Thu 15-Nov-12 19:20:54

Don't angst about it. Just pack your bags, move back to your friends and call a lawyer. Look for work and find a better husband. You are young and you don't need to put up with this. You really don't. Just go.

RowanMumsnet (MNHQ) Thu 15-Nov-12 20:21:41

Hello

Thanks for the thread suspension suggestion: we will do that now while we review it.

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