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Feeling beige and uninteresting - part of depression?

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TotalChaos Tue 11-May-10 20:52:55

I have always had ropey social skills and at the very least aspergers traits....but since motherhood I seem to have completely lost myself - I've turned myself into a boring drudge, I've got a bit of an interest in books and music, but I have fallen into a vicious circle of not getting in touch with people, as I feel boring and as if I've nothing to say to interest people, and then feeling bad about myself for having no friends etc. is this depression? wallowing? I'm even struggling on here - feel like a boring earnest serious cow.

anyone relate? have wise words? DS has had some developmental problems over last 3 years - things have much improved but I still a bit alienated from parents to "normal" kids, in that I feel on edge about my DS seeming immature in speech/behaviour etc, so I've found it hard to make "mummy" friends.

whatname Tue 11-May-10 23:11:40

I can relate to everything you say, and I have stumbled into the mentalhealth section. No inclination that I am depressed or ill.
Just need something interesting in my life!!!
Do you work, I found myself getting a little it excited about finding a job. Scary, but at the thought of a bit of time out of the house, talking to adults and doing things I used to to was quite appealing

TotalChaos Wed 12-May-10 08:03:06

thanks what name. I do work - which is mostly a good thing - just recently I've stumbled into some stressful office politics and been doing different work I've not been properly trained for, which is tipping me right back... I do have a history of depression/OCD and on longterm ADs anyway btw.

I felt a bit like this during the worst of my depression. For me, it was finding talking such a monumental effort. Even saying "hello" or summoning up a smile was so hard it almost physically hurt.

I did feel very down and didn't want to relate to friends / family at all. I think it is a symptom of depression, but doesn't necessarily mean you are depressed. There is a checklist and you have to meet a certain number of them to be diagnosed with depression I think.

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