Mental Health Crisis Team calling - what will they say? Help.

[MarbelousBadge]

Just that really.

I've known I was in a bad way and getting worse for a while.
This morning my friend came round, took control of everything, which I think is what I needed someone to do and called my GP.

As a result the Mental Health Crisis Team are going to call me, I have no idea what to expect.

I'm frightened.
Can anyone tell me what they will say? And ask? I don't really understand, I'm not stupid but I am confused. I've got too many thoughts.

[User543212345]

Please remember first of all that they're there to help you. I don't remember a huge amount of my conversations with the crisis team (I was in a very bad way) but they did more asking than telling. They asked me how I was doing and whether I was likely to hurt myself. They spoke a bit to DH and made appointments to check in with me both by telephone and in person.

I know it's frightening but they're not there to make life difficult for you or limit you in any way. They'll discuss how to get you the appropriate help and then start you getting it.

Is there anyone with you for the call? It was helpful to me to have DH in the next room. Well done, by the way, for taking the difficult steps to get help - and lean on your friend, she's obviously willing to help you here.

[MarbelousBadge]

Thank you for replying, that's helpful because I was having visions of them coming round and taking me away.

Yes, I can identify with being in a bad way.

There's no-one with me now, my friend had to go to work, she made
herself late as it was by waiting for the GP to call back.
She will be in touch later.
There isn't anyone else who can be with me at the moment, I suppose that in itself is part of my problem.

[User543212345]

Do you know when they'll be calling you?

It's lovely that your friend will call you later - maybe take notes whilst you're speaking to the crisis team so you can remember what happened. Not necessarily to discuss it with her, but so you know what the next steps are.

Keep posting though, there will be people on here who will listen/respond whilst you're dealing with this.

[MarbelousBadge]

I don't know when they will be calling, I got the impression it would be this morning but I guess they are pushed and rushed.

Taking notes is a good idea, I'll try. I can't read or write very well at the moment because my brain is fried, which is doubly strange because my job revolves around my literacy.
I'll do it on my laptop.

Thank you sweary

If you or anyone posts please tell me about your days, I'd like to know about normal things because my life has disappeared into a black hole.

[User543212345]

Not very interesting here today, I'm afraid. I have to go up to town to pick up my skis as they've been edged and waxed ready for my next trip. Getting the bus with skis normally raises a few eyebrows - last time I was asked if it was a guitar! I've never seen a long, skinny guitar before so was a bit and then the woman started saying it would be a good way to hide a dead body but dead bodies are hard to lift. It was most bizarre.

Cinema tonight with DH - though I'm full of cold and don't really want to go. It's a short film though and only on tonight so I am just going to woman up. This cold has really knocked my appetite though, so I'm finding it really hard to stick to my meal plan. I suspect the day will end with DH insisting I drink a chocolate milk or something to get my energy targets.

This time 12 months ago I was in exactly your position. I still have tough times, but not as bad and they're becoming fewer and further between. You can beat this

[MarbelousBadge]

Skiing is exciting! I've never been, I like warm weather, but I have friends who go all the time and love it.

Surely it would have had to have been a long, skinny dead body? And why would you take a body on a bus? I mean, obviously, you wouldn't but, anyone really.

I rarely travel on public transport these days where I live there isn't any but when I did I used to meet some real characters, including a couple on a train with matching tattoos on their hips the span of the other ones hand. I couldn't help but feel that the woman had the rougher end of the deal because his hands were so much bigger than hers.

I'm sorry about your cold, I really like the cinema I've barely left the house for weeks but I can see how you'd want to snuggle in instead, I hope the film is good. I like indie films, there was one recently I think it was on at Sundance about a journalist investigation - not Spotlight - if anyone knows what I'm thinking of I'd be grateful because I'd like to see it.

Thank you for saying I can beat this, you are being so kind. My friend this morning also said 'you will be alright, this is you healing'. Although it feels like I'm in a living hell when she put it like that it did feel like it might be alright one day.

I'm still waiting for the call but that's ok, I can wait.

[LionHearty]

Hi Marbel, so sorry that you are feeling low. I am glad that help is on it's way. Sending you a big hug.

My day was a bit rubbish, but I am going to have a lovely bath (with lavender essential oil) and an early night.

You have lovely friends.

[exWifebeginsat40]

the crisis team need to make sure you're safe. if you aren't, or don't think you can keep yourself safe you must tell them.

my day has been blankets, cats and radio 4. it's amazing how much difference having the radio on is - makes me feel connected to the world.

also yes, take notes. I understand about the brainmelt - I used to do a very technical job that needed 100% accuracy. these days I struggle to write a shopping list!

the crisis team are there to help you. please try not to be frightened of them. I know how hard it is.

[MarbelousBadge]

Hello Lion I do have lovely friends, I'm very lucky.

The Crisis Team called, nights have been the worst so we've agreed a plan for tonight, I have the telephone number and I will call it if I'm desperate.
I have an appointment to see the person I spoke to today tomorrow.

We talked about all aspects of my thoughts, what had been going on and why.
When we were discussing methods of suicide I had one of those moments where you see a situation from the outside and laughed at the absurdity of it. I can't remember the last time I laughed.

Friends have kept up a relay of visits and messages all day, I'm very touched. I've spent most of the evening sending thank you messages or calling.

Thank you ex it really does help me to know about your normality when my own world is tilted, I love the sound of the blankets, cats and Radio 4.

[Knackered69]

Hope that you are getting through the night OK x

[MarbelousBadge]

Hello Knackered I know how you feel!

On the advice of the Crisis person I took 2 diazepam before I went to sleep, eventually I slept for 5 hours straight for the first time in months so I feel ok.

Usually I'm a huge sleeper, I can sleep for 9 hours on any night in any conditions planes, under coats at parties, Paris Central Station with my bicycle chained to me so it wasn't nicked so if my sleep goes awry it's a strong sign I'm in a bad way.

The crisis person said they will try me on Mirtazapine, I'm worried about the weight gain but as I would do pretty much anything to feel ok at the moment I'll take it for now.

I have had bad reactions to drugs which is why they suggested Mirtazapine, rather than any others.

I'm going to get showered, dressed and ready for my appointment soon.

What's anyone else doing today?

[Roystonv]

Just finished my Thursday morning cleaning, the bedrooms, have to ring my pet insurance company later to ask why they haven't been taking premiums, will walk downstairs to the office soon and open up for the day, wishing my tickley cough would go. Hope you continue to get the support you need, I am ok atm thanks to my daily dose.

[User543212345]

Good that you slept and are getting ready for your appointment Marb

I didn't get on with mirtazapine but plenty of others do. It's great for knocking you out and giving you a full night sleep. It's something that happens for me too - the inability to sleep when I'm getting bad. I've slept (sober) in a corner of a nightclub before, and when my MH is shit I can't sleep at all.

Not up to much here today - trying to stop coughing and may have a nap as was up much of the night due to stupid cough. Hoping I'll feel better by tomorrow as I have things to do. Also trying to find inspiration for DH's birthday - we'll be away so it needs to be small and token-ish as the holiday is his present. Hmm.

[MarbelousBadge]

I went, I was there for hours, they were very thorough and really good but I do feel exhausted now.

I've been prescribed Trazodone 75mg twice a day and Clonazepam 0.5mg twice a day.
None of the local chemists had Trazodone so I can't take that until tomorrow.
I'm anxious about taking them, afraid they will turn me into a zombie but I should at least get some sleep.

Thank you for replying.

That's good cleaning Roystonv, I'm ignoring the dust for now, here's hoping the motivation kicks in soon.

The blackcurrant Strepsils are good for my coughs Sweary. What does your DH like? Does he have hobbies? Has he got a good sense of humour?

Hope everyone has had good days?

[Roystonv]

As long as I am not at rock bottom I try to keep on top of things in the house as letting standards fall makes me feel worse. I panic I won't ever catch up again. I do hope the meds suit you and glad they could help so promptly. I am on Hall's cherry lozenges for my cough, don't like the blackcurrant ones. Bought myself a new winter woolly today, it is lightweight and flowing and seeing I am a large short person will not improve my looks but I like it and I feel rather artistic in it! Just what I needed for a bit of extra warmth without bulk. Hope you sleep tight.

[MarbelousBadge]

I'm clean, even when I'm like this but there is definitely a dust accumulation going on.

I'm a large short person too, I would have loved a fine knit poncho or cape when they were in the shops this winter but I would have looked liked the garment was trying to eat me slowly.
At home I have a fluffy blanket and my pyjamas.

I've taken my tablet and I'm just waiting for the sleepiness to kick in. You sleep well too.

[exWifebeginsat40]

glad you're doing ok marb. I had an assessment last week and will be having my meds reviewed which is terrifying, but I have fought for 6 months to even get the assessment so I'm more than willing to engage with secondary services.

my day was ok - saw my therapist this morning who is great but it wipes me out for the rest of the day. I can't seem to stop doing the housework though so I feel past tired, if you know what I mean.

I hope you have a restful night.

[Roystonv]

Hope I am welcoming you to a good morning after a decent nights sleep.
Yep, I look exactly like that with my new woolly but I have decided not to care .
Hope you have a good day, it is the 28th birthday of my dd today so we are all out for a meal tonight.

[User543212345]

Morning Marb I hope you slept well. I slept through last night which is a bloody miracle so am not as grumpy as normal this morning

I managed to order a few bits for DH - a t shirt, some cuff links and a thing about his marathon PB - not very inspired but something nonetheless.

I'm still coughing like a bastard, and it hurts so much! I can't take lozenges or cough syrup because calories and my crazy doesn't allow such things. Anorexia is utterly shite. But I'm not quite willing to give it up yet (though I know I must).

Haircut today - first one since I shaved my head last summer, and I thought I might go to the tattoo exhibition at the museum of London. Too much excitement today

[MarbelousBadge]

ex I know exactly what you mean about therapy wiping you out, my two hours with the Crisis team yesterday did for me completely.

Happy birthday to your DD Roystonv wear your new woolly with pride, you work it girlfriend (or something).

Congratulations on a good sleep Sweary, those sound like good gifts. Now I'm middle aged I'm happy with a few Lush bathbombs and a card so I think your DH is getting a good deal!

Don't they do sugar free lozenges? Would those be ok? I'm sorry lass, anorexia is a total bastard.
What hairstyle are you going for? I'd like a tattoo, I don't have any at the moment but I really want one. If you see any ideas please let me know.

I thought the Clonazepam last night would knock me right out. It didn't. It was an improvement but I was still waking up with anxiety attacks. I've taken another one this morning and again, I'm still very jittery. I was hoping for a full-on asleep like the undead night. I hope the Trazodone will really put the brakes on because I am so jittery and wrapped up in nerves that I'm not getting anything done. I plan small tasks - do the washing up, put some washing on - but then I have to sit down, it's ridiculous because I have so much nervous energy but it's unproductive. I'm hoping the combined drugs will give me a holiday from my own mind.

[MarbelousBadge]

I meant to ask - what's everyone else doing today?

[exWifebeginsat40]

I've been chasing the assessment team for a follow up on our appointment last week. apparently a psych consultant is reviewing my meds - and this psych and I did not get along last time I saw her. still, I need to engage to access services so wait and see what she says.

apart from that I'm at my boyfriend's place. we are watching Catfish. Max is hateful.

hope everyone's doing ok today.

[MarbelousBadge]

Are you generally happy with your meds? Do you think they will change them much? What do you think about it?

Do you think Max is generally hateful? Or is it one of the episodes where they get into an argument?
I like Max and Nev I love Nev but I think the format is getting a bit stale now.

I've taken the Trazodone and I am completely stoned, it's slowed me down to a virtual standstill. This is exactly what I needed because I was in overdrive but it's restrictive too because I don't feel arsed to do anything. At all.