Not sure if depressed but scary thoughts...

[Newmummy26]

I am a new mum, lovely ds ia 16 days old. I am not particularly weepy, down or what I conventionally think of as depressed. I am hugely concerned about some scary thoughts I have been having on and off for the last 10 days. It started with just anxiety about people holding the baby, imagining they would drop him, bang his head etc. Now I am imagining myself accidentally hurting him when I see an open window I think, "what if I dropped him out of it". I think now that thought has morphed into me obsessing that I could do this to him even though it started off as just a stupid worry. I have to have the windows closed now as just looking at one open makes me feel sick about that thought.

I must stress that I have no urges to hurt him ordinarily. I have read of some people saying they had to walk away and put their baby in the cot so as not to hit them etc. This is not how I feel at all. It is irrational but now I am so worried about why I have had the thoughts that I have convinced myself I have pnd and am losing it. I have told my husband and he thinks that maybe now I am rehashing it over and over again, the hormones are racing and I am tired and naturally concerned about what a vulnerable little bundle the baby is.

Has anyone else encountered this? Should I go to the docs or see how I feel in a few days?

Thanks in advance.