to think that perhaps I am the worlds biggest twat?

(31 Posts)
Bogeyface Sun 01-Jan-12 00:05:03

Because after a year in which I was v ill due to pg and he coped with the panic of impending fatherhood by having an affair, and after other issues the year before, he was Mr Partyman earlier and is now snoring.

My friend was here and was going home to see midnight in with her OH who was at home (still) nursing a hangover from last night, and my parents were here and said in advance that they would be leaving about tennish as Dad isnt very well. So, it was known in advance that we would see the NY in just the two of us. He was Mein Host, laughing, joking, centre of attention (which he loves being) and within ten minutes of my friend leaving, he was snoring like a pig because he was pissed as a fart.

I look at him and think "this was supposed to be a sign of our new start, moving on into a new era of our marriage. What it is is you being a selfish drunken twat who doesnt care enough about me or about what you did to even stay sober enough to see the NY in with me"

I have been thinking more and more recently about this, and tonight I am really at the point where I think that perhaps I should just say "bollocks" and get a divorce. It wont be easy but atleast I wont have the piss taken out of me will I? sad

Happy New Year. Same as the last....................but atleast this year i know what situation I am in, last year I was a blissfully ignorant, although v unhappy, idiot sad

I have just texted him a video of him snoring like a pig with the NY live thing on the TV in the backgroud with the words, HAPPY NEW YEAR. Hopefully it will wake him up about 5am when it finally gets to him!

AgentZigzagHasABigYuleLog Tue 01-Jan-13 02:54:24

Hehe, I feel smug now that although I'm pissed at least I can type kind of coherently grin

<slurs> I love you <drunkenly staggers at LPF>

AgentZigzagHasABigYuleLog Tue 01-Jan-13 03:01:00

And I imagined you fantasising about what options you have when it gets too much to focus on RL, BF.

Perhaps those things aren't as outlandish and frightening as they are when they're just thoughts and you're thinking worst case scenario.

Bogeyface Tue 01-Jan-13 03:03:36

You're right, they are not as impossible as I once thought.

Tired now so off to bed, but thank you agent and I hope you have a very happy 2013 xx

AgentZigzagHasABigYuleLog Tue 01-Jan-13 03:05:21

Me too, and you too.

Take care <hug>

I was a bit confused <not just cos of three large glasses of red> until I realised the start of this thread was new year 2012 and then jump to update 2013. I am so sorry bogey but I have to say Leave the Bastard.

PurplePidjChickIsNotTheMessiah Tue 01-Jan-13 03:58:04

Here's your rock bottom. Use it as a firm footing to push off from.

He's the twat, you need a plan

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