Finding night feeds depressing

(37 Posts)
sweetpea1112 Sat 12-Jan-13 00:33:33

Anyone else find it unbearable being awake in the night? My baby is 6 weeks old so I know this is only the start of my night waking 'career' but I find waking up in the night to feed/wind/change soul destroying. He never goes more than 3hours between feeds day or night, and we rarely get more than 1-2 hours sleep at a time.

I really dread the night times and can't enjoy it or see it as 'special'time with the baby as others do. I feel like an awful mother for feeling so burdened by this. As I type, he has given me a big gummy smile, but I was completely unmoved by it as I am finding it so hard being up at night. My partner is very good and does the night shift twice a week but that just seems to serve as a reminder of what I am missing. sad

Oops, didn't mean this to be Such a self indulgent moan - hard to find perspective at this time of night.

sweetpea1112 Wed 16-Jan-13 20:07:45

orenishii I have actually adopted this practice myself. For the past week I have been putting him down at 7:30pm and he then wakes at 10:30ish. I always try to stay awake until then, however tempting it is to sleep at 9ish, because like you I hate being woken from a deep sleep. This way, I don't really count it as a 'night' feed either as I havent had to wake up for it iyswim. To be fair to him this week he only wakes at 2am and 5amish after this when he is then awake for the day hmm which isn't too bad going for a 7wk old. ignores 7 week olds who sleep 5hours+

Orenishii Wed 16-Jan-13 19:24:30

I found it psychologically easier to engineer it so I'd wake up the minimum amount of time - if that's possible! I'd give him his last feed at midnight - having stayed up until then - and then he'd wake 2.30/3am and be back asleep at 3.30 ish, then wake again about 6.30. Looking at it that way, it might only be stretches of 3 hours sleep but I just told myself it was only one waking.

He's 11 weeks now but only started sleeping through in the last couple of weeks but it made it a lot more bearable for the night waking. Would this work for you? I know staying up isn;t for everyone - maybe it was easier for me to manage this because I'd go to bed late anyway and be up at 6am for work - so it didn't feel like a lot different. I just found it easier to stay up than be pulled out of a deep sleep more often, i think!

Twattergy Tue 15-Jan-13 20:01:37

I feel your pain OP. Never got the 'such a special time' comments. What is special or joyful about extreme exhaustion. Anyway, firstly wanted to say that I would've killed to have had two nights off a week! Do appreciate that and try and use it for rest. Things I found helped...one was downloading an app called Baby ESP, which you use to log when baby feeds and sleeps. By logging this I could slowly see the pattern of gradually extending sleeps and reducing feeds. It made me believe that ds was going longer and that it was slowly, slowly, getting better. At 5.5 months I had enough of night feeding and put ds in a Velcro baby swaddle thingy. He stopped night feeding that night and never did it again! he did however start waking again in the night at nine months not for food but just for fun and still does sometimes at 16 mo

IcouldstillbeJoseph Tue 15-Jan-13 07:04:07

Forced - not saying you did/do have PND but when I had it I thought the exact same about my DS waking just to piss me off. I remember thinking "if you really understood how tired I was, you'd let me sleep".
Ridiculous now!

forcedinsomnia Mon 14-Jan-13 23:18:38

Doh Sorry premature posting!! 18 months old and is loads better.....still not perfect but who wants a perfect 7-7 baby eh????
Hoping you stay sane and try and find people to chat to have similar (or worse) situations! ! Even if it's just us lot on here. Keep your chin up. X

forcedinsomnia Mon 14-Jan-13 23:14:46

I used to cry.....a lot during night feeds! I now think I may have had pnd.....or just exhaustion?? I am a rational, hard working, strong willed person normally. But for quite some time my 'little bundle of joy' had me on my knees. I could not rationslise the fact that my ds needed me and he wasn't just waking to piss me off!!!! It does get better (in fact that used to piss me off too when people said that because that didn't help me for today.....iykwim!!!) Ask for as much help as possible and just do whatever you can to make life easier. I used to think because I was the mum it was my problem.....and I should be able to cope!! Not easy! I second what someone else wrote earlier in thread......avoid anyone who is in the baby haze of loveliness and adores the whole situation. They are bad for your soul!! (And probably lying wink).
My boy is now nearly 18 mobmonths

teacher123 Mon 14-Jan-13 21:25:11

I have never managed a nap when DS naps, my way of dealing with it has always been to just go to bed as early as possible. When he was really little I used to go to bed with him at 7.30pm. He's now 8 1/2mo and I am usually in bed by 9pm, asleep by 10pm latest. The night wakings absolutely suck though, he's poorly at the moment and is just even more random than usual and making loads of noise in his sleep, coughing and stuff, which wakes me up, even if he settles back. It will get better (so everyone tells you!) but it's soul destroying not knowing when!

sweetpea1112 Mon 14-Jan-13 21:12:09

Danger I don't think I have eaten a meal at a leisurely pace in the 7 weeks since DS was born. Even when DP is looking after him, I still shovel my food down.

Whenever he sleeps during the day it is a race against time to grab food, wash bottles, sort washing etc. I wouldnt be relaxed enough to sleep if all that wasn't done and by the time it is done, he wakes up sad

DangerMousey Mon 14-Jan-13 20:43:14

I hate I whe people say "oh as long as you sleep when he sleeps during the day you'll be fine" - erm, as if its that easy!! I cannot nap during the day. I know I only have an hour (2 tops) till be wakes up again so I usually stuff a sandwich down my neck, wash some bottles and ten lie down on the sofa frantically thinking: "sleep sleep you need to go to sleep"...cos that's a relaxing way to lull yourself off to sleep, right??!

I have not managed it once :-/

And in bad days I get tearful and think I suck cos I can't even manage that: a nap. What a rotten failure I am as a mum etc etc. bad times!

sweetpea1112 Mon 14-Jan-13 08:21:00

I wonder if there's anything we can do to make the night's less depressing? Hmmm doubt it. The whole 'sleep when baby sleeps' during the day is all well and good in theory but if I did that then I wouldn't eat, wouldnt have clean clothes etc...
DS is almost 7 weeks old and doesn't sleep for longer than 2.5 hours (which in itself is a new development!) He was only 6lb at birth so hoping as he gets bigger he will be able to take more milk and therefore sleep for longer....<wishful thinking emoticon>

BikeRunSki Mon 14-Jan-13 08:06:20

I feel like this, and my DD is 15 months old. Older DS (4) doesn't really settle until getting on for 9pm, DD wakes up for the first time around 11 (then at least twice more) before getting up at 5.30am. I went back to work 2 weeks ago and am really struggling.

DS slept through soundly from 6 months! 7 am-7pm. DD at 15 months is worse than DS as a newborn.

opalescent Mon 14-Jan-13 08:05:10

Oh- and the 5-6 hours sleep thing has only happened a couple of times, I'm not being spoilt!

opalescent Mon 14-Jan-13 08:00:23

God I'm feeling this too... Have a 5 week old, and I literally find the night feeds sickening- no exaggeration! I start to dread bedtime from about 6pm, as I have no idea how the night will go. I am elated in the morning if I've had more than 5-6 hours sleep altogether, and feel total despair if I've had less.
I seem to be really unable to cope with lack of sleep- feeling really depressed & odd on bad days, while friends with babies just seem to shrug it off?!

Fairylea Sun 13-Jan-13 10:54:12

Also I'd try to make sure they didn't start to nap downstairs after 4.30 ... if they looked sleepy at 4.30 I'd put them to bed and accept they'd be up at 5ish. I think babies of this age do tend to wake early for the day and it gets better as they get older.

I would also assume that at that age anytime around 2 hours after waking they are due for a nap or proper sleep depending on what time of the day it is.

Fairylea Sun 13-Jan-13 10:51:08

The way we did it (and we formula fed on demand as well) was whatever the last feed of the day was (anytime after 4.30 at first) we would make that the start of the bedtime routine.... so for example if you fed at 2.30 and that was followed by a nap or a period of playtime then from about 4.30 I'd start a bath and try to settle ds upstairs with a bottle and then put down to bed.

Gradually this becomes later as they are able to stay up for longer periods so now at 7 months ds goes to bed about 6ish. But at 6-8 weeks he was sometimes going to bed at 4.45 when he was most tired.

I think the key is to nabbing them upstairs when they seem really tired and feeding them there and then putting down half awake so they start to associate it with bedtime. I would then pop a dummy in as he was getting sleepy and leave the room after stroking his head.

If he didn't settle I'd leave for a few mins (not talking crying here - if he cried I'd go back and cuddle and then put down when settled etc and again) and if didn't settle after a few mins I'd replace dummy if fallen out and stroke head and go again. I'd keep going (sometimes took a while!)

Unless ds was crying I would never pick him up and I'd never bring him out of the bedroom or turn the lights on at all. I don't make any noise at all when I see to them.

I have done the same with both dc and they have both slept very well... but I'm no expert !!!

CheungFun Sun 13-Jan-13 10:20:11

I can't say I ever enjoyed night time feeds....it was just a case of do the necessary then get back to bed and sleep ASAP! It does get easier as they get bigger they can have more milk and stay fuller for longer!

DangerMousey Sun 13-Jan-13 10:14:49

Hey sweetpea i am so glad you started this thread. I have been feeling like I was the only woman on earth feeling exactly as you describe.

My 5wo DS is formula fed, so he goes longer between feeds than a BF baby of his age I guess, but I am STILL finding the nights incredibly hard. I put him in his own room with a monitor this week (i know, i know), because his snuffling and snorting all night meant that I wasnt sleeping even when he was - so i was getting about 1.5 hours sleep per night and I thought I was going insane. I literally thought I was going to vomit with tiredness by the time dh got home from work last wednesday :-(

I am now getting a couple of 2.5 hour blocks per night, which I know sounds great compared to what lot of people have at 5wo....but i still hate it.

Fairylea - when you put your DCs into their own room at 6 weeks, what did your 'strict bedtime routine' look like? I am finding it hard to set one up cos DS is not really on a routine as such yet during the day, so evenings are a bit all over the place. i.e. cos he is pretty much still feeding on demand throughout the day, sometimes at 3 hour intervals, sometimes 4, and occasionally 2-and-a-half, we end up having his nighttime drink at a different time each night. Any tips on how to manage this?

sweetpea1112 Sun 13-Jan-13 01:57:12

Thank you so much for replies smile. Am glad my feelings are normal but also sad. that lots of others are feeling this way. I would happily go through pregnancy and labour again, but this lack of sleep is certainly making me dread having a second baby.

HelloBear Sun 13-Jan-13 01:07:05

And breath.

HelloBear Sun 13-Jan-13 01:06:23

As I sit here feeding DS who will NOT go down (been trying since 11 it is now 1) I can safely say I feel it is anything but special. Feeling pretty pissed off actually, my DH is asleep next to me and iccan hear my DD coughing so she is probably going to wake up soon and require resettling. All I want to do is sleep, oh and have some space!!!!

I love them big for the love of god go to sleep!!!!

See it is normal?????

TheFallenNinja Sat 12-Jan-13 08:39:57

Nope, there's nothing natural or normal about being ripped from your sleep to unreasonable demands from an unappreciative audience with no idea when you may be released from this captivity smile

It does get better though grin

Some luck there I think Fairylea! DS had his own room from 3 weeks and was lucky to get a grunt from me during the night - let alone eye contact! I broke all the rules with DD (cosleeper cot, bfing in bed, etc) and she was always one feed per night less DS was at the same age.

They are now 2 and 4 and both good sleepers (aside from waking at 6:30 - but DH does too so I think I have to accept this is now morning in our house!!) DS is a very sensitive child though so I think this probably contributed to his awkward temperament as a baby!

Fairylea Sat 12-Jan-13 07:44:09

Also, I put a chair next to the cot and when they woke I'd feed them in that, no light no changing no talking and they soon learned night time was for sleeping ... or maybe I was just lucky but I did this from about 6 weeks.

Fairylea Sat 12-Jan-13 07:42:25

No you're normal.

I hate it with a passion. I actually feel really angry inside and resent getting up at all.

This is why from 6 weeks both of mine have been in their own rooms with monitors and a strict bedtime routine. I have found it helps although against sids advice and both have slept through from 12 weeks more or less (dd 9 weeks).

I needed to sleep through for my own sanity. I could never co sleep either, I need my space in bed !

Night wakings are not special time with baby. I only 'enjoyed' (as in, didn't dread) the night feeds when they dropped to one per night.

That said, I found them much harder with my first than my second. Here is what helped with my second baby:

1. I discovered the kindle and other ereader apps on my phone and downloaded loads of trashy but addictive books. My night waking routine was then, change nappy, get DD latched on then sit back and read. If it was a particularly filthy gripping book I would even get a little excited upon waking that I got to read the next bit.

2. I made sure I was comfortable and never cold. My first (DS) was bottle fed from 3 weeks and I used to have to go downstairs in the cold in my filmsy dressing gown then sit in an equally cold room and give him his bottle. I hated it. With DD I was lucky that the breastfeeding worked so no getting out of bed, but if it had failed I think I would have considered using the small cartons of formula poured into pre-steralised bottles or even stretching the budget to something like this to cut out having to go downstairs in the night. I also kept a few extra pillows and a very warm, fluffy dressing gown to hand.

I think with your first you spend so long planning what the baby needs that you forget to plan what you need. Take some time to think about what would make feeds more bearable for you. If you have to get out of bed perhaps think about one of those rocking nursing chairs. DMIL had one at her house and I use to love staying there and using it. Something for you. It will get easier as the feeds drop and you are less sleep deprived!

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