Dp and I are having cyclical rows about a recurring issue, and have started seeing Relate about it. For the first time in our 10-and-a-half years together, we haven't been able to work through a fundamental difference of opinion
Before dp and I had ds (approaching two-and-a-half), we intended that one, or ideally both, of us would stay at home and raise him. As it's turned out, I've stayed home with ds while dp has grown a successful business.
What I am struggling with is that probably one of the most challenging times in my life (raising a very spirited, crap-sleeping toddler) is coinciding with probably the most rewarding, fulfilling and happy time in dp's life. As much as I love ds to bits, I am finding it bloody tough at the moment. Dp, on the other hand, doesn't have an equivalent job with ups and distinct downs, long hours, etc. He runs a business which he's made such a rollicking success of that dp has been able to delegate about half his workload to a fantastic team (who think he's the best boss ever ? cue more fulfillment), and go off for test drives, lunch with friends, flying lessons and more during the other half of his "working" day.
Part of me thinks good for dp, this is the kind of life everyone would want, and he rightly says he's created it for himself and why would anyone elect to make their life shitter in order to keep things "fair"? But another part of me is so fed up and resentful at the unfairness of it, of his joie de vivre at the moment and of the fulfilment he feels and recognition he receives, and concerned by the effect this disparity between our lives is having on our relationship: you can imagine how, erm, uniting and connecting a "How was your day, dear?" conversation can be in our house! I feel sad, too, because I'm kind of sick of hearing about all the great stuff dp is doing, when I feel I want to be enthusing with him; he's achieving some amazing stuff.
Dp feels that to do less of what he loves would be martyrdom/compromise/selflessness - all things he doesn't believe in - and encourages me to do (a lot) more for me. But I don't think the answer lies in me having as much "me" time as dp has for him. I see it that we have a small, demanding child, at a very formative age, who needs his mum (and dad) around most of the time, and if dp's got so much spare time in the working day, why can't he come home and spend some of it with us, or take ds out for a bit and give me a break? I think some (and usually a considerable) element of compromise is par for the parenting course; dp doesn't seem to agree.
I wonder if I'm being a killjoy/ungrateful moaner/martyr, or reasonable to want/expect dp to comes down from the clouds a bit, show me some solidarity for caring for a fun but feisty, crap-sleeping toddler, and get stuck in alongside me; like we're a team ...
Grateful for others' perspectives. Thanks.
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It's not fair! My life centres around spirited toddler, while dp is having the time of his life ...
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ItsNotFair · 04/10/2006 02:07
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