please dont dismiss this as normal pregnancy tuff, hear me out then tell me I'm being stupid, but please listen to me.
I've had 2 previous full term pregnancies so know what pregnancy is like. I'm 10+1 and feel wrong.
I'm completely irrational to the point where (although completely ashamed to admit it) have lost it with my children on more than one occasion and have screamed shouted and smacked them for what I realise now to be completely redicilous reasons (they're 20 months and almost 3)
When I eat carbs I feel sick, dizzy and very tired
I'm completely exhausted, I was diagnosed with CFS and then eventually Folic Acid Deficiency Aneama and since starting on the drugs have been doing really well. the pregnancy wasnt planned and I feel as tho almost over night I've been thrown back to when it was at its very very worst.
When I drink squash or eat sugars I feel dizzy and light headed. In fact I'm sat here now feeling dizzy with blurred vision feeling awful wanting to just burst into tears.
I feel down all the time, when I'm not flying off the handle I'm just 'sad' and that doent really describe it
This is how I felt at 30+ week in my last ppregnancy. DD2 was born 10lb 9oz and I was told I probably had gestational diabetes (symptoms such as sugar in urine were missed and I wasn't tested)
I had my booking in appointment with my midwife yesterday and she was completely dismissive of my concerns and told me I was being parinoid. I know it sounds stupid but I think theres a problem. I think I could have GD or theres something else going on (like the folic acid deficiency) She told me there is no way I'll be tested for GD until 20 weeks as I may not have had it last time, it was only a possibility. I cant go on like this for another 10 weeks I feel like I'm on the edge and feel like if its not something like GD maybe I should be on AD's.
I should also say during DD1's pregnancy I had Anti-natal depression, but this feels different, I cant explain it but it felt very different. Am I just kidding myself?
I know pregnancy makes you tired, sick and hormonal but I've done this twice and it just doesn't feel right. I don't know what to do so I ask you, is this normal or should I ring up and try and speak to a different midwife tomorrow?