Just need to write this down. Ds is 15mo and after traumatic birth/PTSD and the ensuing problems with dh due to a hard year I am at peace. Have spent the last two weeks panicking that I was pregnant again after a stupid mistake (was concentrating on not panicking and not thinking straight) but it seems I am not! These two weeks made me realise that I cannot have another dc, ds is a very full on child (high needs do they call them?) and would suffer tremendously if we had to divide our attention, and I am not capable of caring for more people really, I am not that kind of person. So rock on the three of us!