Guess the babies are whipping my emotions into overdrive, as I just want to cry all the time today.
I either feel overwhelmed at it all, or afraid something dreadful will happen to the babies or my 2 dc, or feel very trapped and isolated, or afraid of how my body will change during a twin preg, or afraid of how I will cope when they are here.
Feel I can't talk to any of my friends as don't want to burden them with my pointless drivel as there are worse things in life.
Feeling like I need a holiday in the sun but can't afford it.
Want my energy back so I can do fun stuff
Want to not feel sick so I can eat normally
I know I'm being very self indulgent with my self pity
Just fed up and know it'll get worse as preg continues.
Sorry you feel so down butterfly. Being pregnant is a difficult and emotional time for a lot of women and twins especially more so. The morning sickness will go at some point and you will start to feel more yourself. I really enjoyed the second trimester of my twin pregnancy.
Try and talk to your DH and your friends, it is not pointless drivel, it is a scary time. I am quite an emotional person anyway, so I know how you must be feeling. The first trimester exhaustion will lift soon.
How old are you other 2 DC? I don't have any other children, so I can't imagine how difficult that must be. Is there any chance of you putting them in nursery for a couple of days a week when you get bigger so you can have a break? I am a childminder and I worked until 30 weeks. I looked after 3 two year olds and it was back breaking work. I was very happy to start my maternity leave.
Having two babies is so lovely. You are in a special club. Not many women get to experience double cuddles and smiles. It is truly wonderful having twins.
I know it sounds cliche but reading your post is quite literally a description of how i felt a few weeks ago. I am 16 +3 now and starting to feel a bit better but can completely relate to how you feel. I felt so tired, unwell and sick and just felt like all i could do was lay about, but was so depressed that i couldn't do anything more, and also like you had very strong anxiety about something happening to them etc. Pregnancy is bloody hard, let alone when we suddenly have two on board! Not knowing how much your body will change or how you will cope is a constant worry too. I already have a ds so worried about how he is going to take all the changes. I know Im not offering much advice but want you to know you are not alone in how you feel. I totally totally understand. Don't feel like a burden you should try and talk to.your friends if you can and explain how you feel. I know what you mean about feeling like its drivel but its really valid and a big deal! You need support at this time. Hope it gets better for you soon. In the meantime please come and let off steam here anytime and i will be happy to listen and also join in!
Sorry to hear that feel fed up Butterflies. Sending you a big hug. Ok, here are some positives - days are getting longer, you have passed the 12 week scan, the tiredness and sickness will wear off soon, your life will return to normal at some point, and there are us going though exactly the same experience and emotions (I have 2 DC, also pregnant with twins). I would do anything to be 14 weeks rather than 9! X