Will it get any easier?

[CrazyPregnant]

I am 6 weeks pregnant after having 2 consecutive MC last year, at 8 & 11 weeks. I am in a constant state of anxiety, feels like I am having palpitations. I feel so stressed all the time- this feeling made worse because I have also given up smoking. Every time I go to the loo I am expecting to see blood- I dream that I am having a mc most nights. My stomach is in knots all the time- I am so tense and the smallest unimportant things can set me off into tears.
There is this feeling that if I MC this time not only will I have to deal with the loss but also with the fact that I will not have any more children- I couldn't face going through this again. I am so lucky to have 2 gorgeous DC already.
Will this feeling get any better? Will I feel this bad until I get to a safe point? 12 weeks, 25 weeks? I feel like I am going insane.
I have to pop out nw but thanks in advace for any help

[cyanarasamba]

I'm so sorry you're going through this - I'm likely to be in a similar boat soon and not looking forward to it one bit. I had a missed MC (picked up at the 12-week scan), followed by DS, followed by a MC at 10 weeks in April this year. We are now TTC again.

With the second pregnancy I was in bits for much of the first few weeks but found a couple of early scans helpful to ease my mind. Once I'd had the 12-week scan I did start to relax, then after that it was only a few short weeks before I began to look pregnant, feel movement etc and then I actually began to enjoy the pregnancy. I know things can go wrong past 12 weeks but early miscarriage is the most common complication and the most scary for the likes of us.

Could you talk to you GP, Midwife or Early Pregnancy Unit and see if they can schedule a scan for you at - say - 9 weeks? Not sure if you saw a heartbeat last time but the statistics are that once a heartbeat is seen at this stage the chances of MC are greatly reduced.

Everything crossed for you, I hope you can get through the next few weeks safely. Cx

[CrazyPregnant]

Hi, thank you so much for replying.

I actually feel the opposite to you and really don't want an early scan- sounds wierd I know, but I couldn't cope with seeing a heartbeat and being told everything is OK then to loose it after that. Maybe that is the wrong decision, I don't know.

Thank you for your good wishes- good luck to you with the TTC x

[giraffescantdancethetango]

I am not sure if that anxiety wil ever go - I think you find ways of dealing with it. We have all lost the innocence we have around pregnancy. So much so that I find other peoples innocence around pregnancy very difficult to take and so I worrry for them about each stage. Sadly I have no magic answers, but am here anytime you want to vent...x

[CrazyPregnant]

Thank you giraffe, like you say there are no magic answers- nothing anyone can say to make the worry go away. I think venting every now and then is the answer for now!