So,to cut a long story short,after several years of not smoking,I have had a few fags,and am planning to start smoking again (in full knowledge of the facts).
I have steadily and consistently gained weight since giving up and I am now classed as obese and the heaviest I've ever been.I've tried everything to curb my ever increasing appetite and just don't seem to be able to tackle the eating.I'm very unhappy with myself.
Far more disturbing from my pov is that I used to be very sporty,but now I'm finding my size is preventing me from doing the things I love to do.I know running would have too great an impact on my joints.I'm feeling tired so easily,sluggish and lacking in energy.I used to walk for miles,now I find its getting more difficult.
I know smoking holds its own risks,of course I do,but I can see my body struggling here and now,owing to my size.
I'm left with the one thing,that is smoking,that I know I can use as a tool to control my weight.
All I can see is continuing the same pattern of getting heavier and heavier gradually,and the thought makes me feel so bleak.
I have,before,given up smoking for a few years abd at the same time dieted so as not to gain the weight.This time I went about it all wrong,and didn't watch what I ate,so now its spiralled out of control.
I'm seeing smoking as a short term measure in order to lose the weight.I know I can give up again,but this time have a clean slate and not let over eating take its place like I did before.
I'm reckoning its better to smoke and be active,than not a get fatter,lose mobility,and feel miserable.
I'm pretty desperate.Anyone got any experience to share of a similar situation?