thanks everyone.
yes if it reminds anyone at all i will feel better, i had gone past the date for my own so am booked in for friday.
No sadly i never got chance to say goodbye.
I had sent her a message on FB last week asking if she was ok as some of her work mates had put get well wishes on her page, but i never heard back from her 
I dont know all the details yet, i am trying to get in touch with her mum but obviously dont want to ask too many questions.
So not sure if she hadnt been for smears but iu guess to be that advanced it had been a while, saying that i think normally theyre are only one every 2-3 years arent they?, i have to go yearly myself due to having CIN 3 9 years ago.
2-3 years is a LONG time to wait, i think they should be yearly for everyone!
All i know is that when they discovered it, i am told it had spread to other places in her body. They must have began chemotherapy straight away and quite intensive i would think but 5 weeks later she lost her fight and left 2 children . She was just 33
Hardly anyone knew about it or saw her as she didnt want people to see her hair falling out, so am guessing she was thinking she could fight this and win otherwise she may have said more goodbyes, must have been so hard to come to terms with. the family are in complete shock and probably only getting through the days n a haze of disbelief and tears.
We were the best of friends at school but grown apart as we got older however we'd got back in touch about a year ago and her partner has told me that shed said lately how pleased she was that id got back in touch with her .
A selfish thought i know, but it makes me sad that i am the only one with all these fun memories now and cant giggle about things we did together .x