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Dh left on Wednesday to think things over(31 Posts)
I cried on Wednesday/Thursday, felt anxious on Friday and Saturday. Last night I started to feel anger and today I have started to look at benefit entitlements.
Does this mean I don't want him back? I have lots of emails I sent myself about topics like what changes Ican make, what changes Id like him to make because I wanted to reconcile but I'm confused by the feelings of anger.
We have 3 dc 11,9,6 who think he's away on business and been together 13 years. No abuse or anything like that.
On Thursday I sent him an email with some questions which he replied to then we ended up arguing on text then talking about the good old times.
On Friday we went to his mums. I asked him to call the kids this weekend out of courtesy as they miss him but nothing. He promised to contact me with some questions and thoughts that he has but nothing yet. I sent him a gentle text last night to remind him of this (I'm checking email every 2 minutes as I'm desperate to keep some dialogue going but nothing.
Do you think I'm harassing him too much? I've sent emails that are not long and rambly and think that one message a day is not overly pushy. I have lots of thoughts and ideas that I want to share with him but I don't want to push him into reconciling if he's not really up for it or seem like I'm too overbearing.
I can't stop obsessing over when he's going to contact me, what's he thinking and when he's going to call the kids. I'm really surprised at his lack of contact with them (they have phones so he could call/message them without talking to me) . Everytime I see the same car model as his my heart races.
Now I predominantly feel anger that the ball is in his court, he won't see the kids when I've had 5 days of pretending everything is ok and not contacting me at all. - even if he said that he isn't able to articulate his thoughts today then it'd help as I could stop checking email. Sigh..
I feel like Im going mad. I average about 5 hours sleep at night and feel panicky, angry and tearful. I have loads of episodes where my body forgets to breathe and I end up gasping.
Thank you for reading this long ramble. I have no friends or family that I can turn to.
I wouldn't contact him tbh.
I am coming to that conclusion too.
Contacting him makes me feel needy and anxious so I think it's best to not chase him anymore.
Let him miss you and dc's.....if you no longer contact him he'll wonder y, might make him sit up and realise that you are carrying on life without him.
Why did he leave exactly? What 'things' did he need to 'think over?' Was this all a surprise to you, or had there been something brewing for a while?
I think there may be some truths you're unaware of and I hope you get some resolution soon. I feel for your children waiting to hear from their dad - that must be making you so angry and sad.
Is there someone else involved ? He is fitting the pattern, from what you have said.
Do you know where he is now?
I think he has way to much control in this situation. Leaving you alone to deal with the (unknown?) situation and also look after the dc.
Can you go away next weekend, leave him to have the dc?
Oh, this is horrible.
You are probably in a state akin to shock, and you need to by kind to yourself. Have you someone in RL you can confide in, and who might Len a friendly hand as you sort out what life will be like during his absence?
Do not keep emailing him. Keep any communications short and focussed entirely on arrangements for the children and any other practical admin that cannot wait until he calls for the DCs. He'll know from what you've already sent that you want to talk to him; you don't need to keep telling him that. And it will help if you use the time and space of the separation to start thinking about what you really want in future, with or without him.
Think back over the last few months, sounds like my ex, left for ow.
Things have been up and down in the marriage so it'd not a surprise but Im not sure why Wednesday was the day he left.
I think that my dh is basically an addict. At the moment he's addicted to exercise, drinking and smoking. During the marriage he's also been addicted to eating, porn, work, computer games and Internet chat rooms. His addictions make him less desirable to me and make me plough my efforts into the kids even more which drives us further apart. At the moment he has trouble performing in bed which leads me to ask him what's up but he won't say.
My oldest child suspects an OW and so do I but he insists there isn't. Based on online banking statements I do not think he has another stressful addiction like gambling or drugs but something is wrong.
I want him to see the dc. They keep asking about him and I don't want to tell them the truth until I know what it is.
When he normally travels for business he calls the kids and sends them pics of his room service dinner etc so Im really surprised that he won't contact them. Not talking to me is one thing but not contacting the kids is awful. He works long hours Mon-Fri so it'll be at least next week before they seem him.
He is currently staying at a hotel (based on online banking) No idea if there is someone with him or he's actually staying there as its not local.
I will not send him any more messages unless there is an emergency. The kids think it's business as usual (they are playing ps3 with mates downstairs) and Im fearing that I will have to tell them the truth soon.
Thank you so much for all the replies so far. They mean the world to me and keeping me strong.
Forget him, work out why you went for someone who was an addict, had kids with him and by the sounds of it brought in kids from a previous relationship.
I feel for you, as I married someone similar, I don't trust my choices so stay single, also I don't want my kids hurt again.
I didn't know he had an addictive personality. I met him at work so very hard to know what someone is really like.
I had 3 kids though. His family all seem to have addiction problems except his sister and part of me felt that it wasn't so bad compared to them. His addictions weren't destructive in the obvious way that his father and brothers are so it was quite easy to see it as a character flaw rather than something intolerable. His father used to get drunk and beat his mum. His youngest brother beat up his other brother when drunk and he ended up in a&e with black eye and broken nose. Dh has never scared me while drunk. Was I settling unnecessarily? I don't know.
If dh is leaving then I will probably remain single too for the same reasons.
I think a yardstick that tells you at least he is "just" a 7/10 tool instead of a 10/10 tool is a flawed one
Might be worth thinking about some financial issues - you said you were checking benefits. Assuming you don't work and he does and he perhaps earns £25k average wage..., do you rent or have a mortgage? Have you got copies of things like his P60 and tax return and your marriage certificate? It sounds like he has done nothing financial yet - perhaps still got a joint bank account, you can still both draw on it. Keep checking what is happening there.
It is strange that he is not wanting to see the children or at least contact them - probably because he cannot make up his mind what to do and would have to tell them he didn't know what he is going to do. Could you ask his sister if she has any idea what is going on?
His sister wouldn't know as she's not close to h. The most likely person to know would be his mum and based on how she behaved when another son divorced, Im not sure she'd tell me the truth and it might be seen as me hounding h and I am not going to beg him to come back- I just want to get some dialogue going.
We have a mortgaged house with about 60k equity, he earns £65k and I earn £200 a month free lance. (I work around the children so no childcare fees) I would consider job hunting for a permanent job if we split and it made financial sense. Credit card is in h's name and I have no debts like student loans.
We currently live between Dc1's school and dc2/dc3's school. I can't see anything to rent round here so Id have to take dc2 and dc3 out of their current school and put them on the mammoth waiting list for schools nearer dc1's school. I can not drive due to epilepsy so that's not a solution either.
Have been reading the red flags thread in relationship and feel like I've been minimising dh's behaviour.
The children thing is shit. I think he knows Id not withhold contact so Im expecting a call some time asking if he can pick them up in 10 minutes or something. (He's very impulsive and it wouldn't occur to him that the kds and I would prefer a prearranged date and time)
Just had a text from him to ask if he can come round in 45 minutes time. Eek! I've said yes because of the kids
and me and suspect he's driving so haven't asked for further details.
Today I've come to the conclusion that I'll cope if he goes. It will be painful but I can be a lone parent without him.
Feeling nervous and will update later or tomorrow depending on what happens.
He works you don't He is on £60k a year. I am pretty sure a lawyer would say you can stay put until the children are 18 and then he gets his equity out of the house and in the mean time he pays you mainteance (and for the children he has to pay 25% of his after tax earnings under CSA rules I think on top of what he pays you). His housing needs may be met if with another woman - I doubt he's staying long term in a hotel as that would cost too much. i expect his salary would pay the mortgage plus you would have child benefit and child tax credits as a single person on a low salary. Do not register with HMRC to stop child benefit despite his £60k salary now of course. Keep claiming the full child benefit.
Legally does not matter whose names things are in as basically on divorce they add up all assets the equity is usually the only ting and then and then split it but if it would leave the children homeless he would only get his share when you move or remarry or have a new live in boyfriend or when the children reach 18. Obviously if you earn 10x what he does as I did then it's totally different (and my children's father got about 60% of our/my assets).
Don't leave whatever happens as your legal position will be much better if he stays and of course it all may work out. Lots of long marriages have ups and downs.
Good advice from xenia
Start by assuming you won't work it out (who would want to ?) and protect yourself financially
Some basic info from CAB on ending a marriage.
Sometimes they can arrange a free session with a family solicitor for you - or you may be able to find one yourself.
You naturally have loads of questions at this point, and it would be worth focussing and getting some answers.
Search for posts by olgaga - loads of advice on places to seek help for practical and financial matters.
search posts from olgaga
where is she , anyway ?
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