Anyone up for a bit of hand-holding and/or motivational success stories for a late starter to the TTC game?
DH and I started actively SWI last September, so we're 5 months in to TTC. He's 41, I turned 38 in October.
We've been together for 8 years, but only started to deliberately TTC last year as we've had some major stresses to deal with in that time: severe financial hardship, DH's business going to the wall, crises in my working life which led to my breaking down (twice!).
I know people say there's never a "good" time to try for a baby, but we really have been in a dark place until relatively recently, when happily all the above problems started to ease (and we've been relaxed and happy enough to actually want to DTD instead of lying awake at night worrying about money / losing our house etc).
Plus my sister lost her first baby at 26 weeks during this time - we are a very close family, and this threw us all into a period of massive grief. My mother says she feels like she can't remember much of this bleak time - nor the months since as DSis has happily gone on to have 2 babies in quick succession following her loss, so all hands have been on deck helping her cope with 2 under 2.
Anyway, AF arrived this morning (despite epic every-other-day efforts on the shagging front this month), and I just feel really blue about the whole TTC thing and am panicking that, at 38, I've left it too late
I am rattling with supplements and temping like a fiend (pretty weird to go from temping to avoid conception to TTC temping), swilling vile cough mixture and necking EPO in a bid to improve my scanty CM, and am generally feeling like a desperate person who knows she's missed the boat.
I didn't think we had much chance this month as OPKs were all negative from CD10 to CD25 (when I gave up) and I had no watery or EW CM whatsoever (usually get a little bit), so don't think I ovulated. All that SWI gone to waste! So when AF turned up this morning I wasn't surprised, but I still can't help feeling gutted.
Bit of back-story: we conceived by accident within the first couple of months of our relationship (8 years ago), and took the decision not to continue with the pregnancy as it was just too early on and we were both completely freaked out. I don't regret this, despite the fact that happily we have stayed together and are now married.
But I think part of my frustration stems from this: we did it once, why can't we do it again? And the answer is of course - because I am 38 now, not 30.
I just feel like kicking myself for not being able to blank out all the bad stuff that was happening in the intervening years and just get on with TTC
My cycles are fairly regular (26-32 days), but my LP is only 11-12 days. Am taking B6 to try to lengthen LP.
TBH I feel like giving myself a month off TTC as it's making me feel so stressed and sad, but then at the same time I know every month counts when you're my age.
Plus I know already that work is going to be hideously stressful between now and May, so I know in my guts that if I cave in and "have a break" in Feb, we won't be able to get going again properly on the TTC front until the summer - when I'll be nearly 39!
And I also know I've got to pack in smoking and cut down on booze, but that just feels like an overwhelming project on top of TTC too (despite the fact that obviously I would cease both vices if I was lucky enough to get upduffed - so that's illogical too).
Anyway, sorry this is so long - feels a bit better just to get it off my chest. Like I said at the top, and hand-holding and/or success stories would be very gratefully received.
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38 and TTC #1 - panicking I've left it too late :(
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LateStarterAndPanicking · 02/02/2011 00:18
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