Have been happily preparing for my HBAC and haven't had any wobbles whatsoever, just happy to go for it and if it doesn't work out then it doesn't work out.
Keeping it simple is my motto, homebirth being the simplest option I can think of/feel for. So I'm with great and very supportive midwife and doula but they wanted me to talk over risks etc with a hospital consultant, also so that my history (CSec with DS 17 months ago as head didn't engage despite 7cm and 2 days home labour) would all be on record if we needed to transfer during labour. Eventually after 10 hours on the drip I dilated to 10cm but head still only 2 or was it 3/5ths engaged.
Had a 36 week scan yesterday and consult Gynae had an external feel around, pulled a face that DD isn't yet engaged, sent me off for scan with nurse, who thought everything seemed normal and when I came back to his office he said he recommended that I think again and have an elective section. I was totally and utterly gobsmacked and still am. He said that according to circumferance of DD's abdominal area on the scan, she weighs about 2800 (6.1lbs grams now and will gain around 150 grams a week making her a 'big baby' (eh?) by the time she's due. DS was 3800 grams (8.3) when born, which isn't exactly enormous but he made the comment that I seem to grow big babies and that this one will be equally difficult to birth and that a section was the answer. WTF??? I'm a 5'6" and have an athletic build and there is no evidence to suggest that DS was too big to fit through my pelvis. (Don't believe the too big for your pelvis excuse anyway except in very very very rare circumstances where pelvic joints are somehow locked - so much pelvic expansion occurs during birth). I hadn't told him about my HBAC plan as it's kind of illegal (as in totally against midwifery protocol) and I had to search high nad low to find someone to support me here in the Netherlands. Just told him I wanted to be at home for first few cm's and then come in to the birthing centre. I wasn't arrogant but was very clear and confident about my intentions and ability to give birth naturally. I know him to be a pro natural birth consultant, he's famous for being the best of a bunch in a country which is very pro natural birth with a midwifery model in firm place with home births being the norm.

I am so amazed at his recommendation that I am now wondering what on earth there is to this? I thought that 2nd babies often didn't engage til the labour itself? Is it so worrying that she had not engaged yet? I'm 36 weeks exactly. I'm doing everything possible for Optimal Foetal Positioning, acupuncture and cranio sacral and reflexology on a daily basis, but I"m not neurotic about it as I simply believe I can and will birth this baby naturally, even if she is big.
Can anyone shed any light on this? I"m in a really weird space since yesterday, part confused, part outraged, partly knowing I should just stay away from the hospital. I went there to be told what the risks are etc re rupture and so on but the vibe I got is that it's THE HOSPITAL that feels risky, with all that can happen when you step out of the body and into the head and data and interventions and paranoia and hierarchy. Feels wrong wrong wrong. I think I need a teensy bit of reassurance that I'm not crazy to stay at home for the duration of the pregnancy and let things happen in their own natural way and rhythm and if a complication comes up, then we can use the medically available resources from a grounded and non-fear based position.
I"m also now slightly obsessed with her head engaging, but I'm trying not to go crazy bouncing around on the ball or over focusing on it, as staying open and relaxed seems more important.
Any experiences or suggestions or advice very much welcome.