Fobbed off with no epidural, how do I guarantee one next time?(38 Posts)
My labour was classed as 'quick' with apparently 2.5 hours of active labour. The thing was that I was examined and told I was only 2cm dilated and could be in this latent phase for 24 maybe 48 hours. I told them all the women in my family go from 2- fully dilated very quickly and that I was in a lot of pain. I was found my best to talk calmly, after (excuse me) emptying myself from both ends completely! And getting short gaps between contractions to be able to talk. I felt like I was a fraud and that noone believed I was having the baby, and I was treated like a child who was complaining about a grazed knee. I refused to go home as I knew I couldn't make it to the car, after just over an hour on the ward (of sleeping women, I felt very guilty as I couldn't keep quiet, and had to kneel on the floor of the toilet for most of the time in tears) I begged to be reexamined and the midwife said calmly 'just breath' I felt like I was totally alone as my husband was sent home. Anyway, they examined me and suddenly realised I was 7cm or more and had had no pain relief. I was honestly in agony. I have had root canals without pain relief and thought that was nasty but that was nothing!! The gas an air that I eventually got did nothing except make the little gap between contractions ok, but that wasn't what I wanted, I wanted pain relief! I asked for an epidural so many times it felt like noone wa listening, they said I could have a birthing ball!?! Are you kidding me, I was under the impression if you asked for it in time you could have it. I even remember begging them, I said 'I am begging you please' and I am not that sort of person, I had zero dignity in saying this and I felt like no one thought it was that painful. One midwife even said 'you chose to have this baby!!!!!' how can people talk to you like that. I had quite a bad tear at the end and had post traumatic stress, I could barely talk and couldn't talk about the labour for weeks after, even now I feel like I new want to go back into hospital, even though I want more children. I felt like they thought I was being dramatic and that labour was nothing. Even though I held most of the noise in by biting through my lip so that it was brused, bleeding and swollen and I cracked my front tooth.
Please, anyone who knows how to make sure that you get an epidural, tell me! Even afterwards there was no reason given why I didn't get one. They just kept delaying it until it was too late. I felt like a child. Only women who have felt pain like that know what it's like, I try to tell my husband, I would have done anything to stop the pain and I have never felt anything close to it. How can I make sure I get proper pain relief? I don't even want to get pregnant until I know and I hate th hospital. I want to be 100% sure that I won't experience that treatment again. It scares me to think that no-one listens and you can't do anything yourself. Thank you anyone who can help or if you have had a similar experience, I feel alone in this and feel really down.
Your experience sounds really crap and I can understand why you're so worried. I think you need to ring the hospital up/write to them and ask for an appt with a supervisor of midwives to go through your birth plan. Bit of a debrief but also a chance to discuss a plan of action for next time.
Some women do labour very quickly and I can understand why they said no to an epidural at 2cm especially when it's your first baby a you could have been days before you got to established labour. The midwives won't want to do examinations too frequently because of risk of infection, makes women sore, for most women there won't have been a massive change. So they try to keep them to four hourly gaps.
There may have been reasons why at 7cm they didn't get you an epidural. The anaesthetist may have been genuinely busy. They might not have had enough midwives to give you one to one care. They might have thought you were progressing so fast that there wasn't time to site one, though IMO that's not a good enough reason. But this should have been explained to you.
I think a birth plan next time which briefly says what happened last time and how it made you feel and how you don't want it repeated would be a good idea. But I don't know if anyone can guarantee you an epidural, especially as second labours are often quicker.
I could have written the first part of your thread. On the ward I was told it was gel pains from the induction, and spent most of it on my knees in the toilet crying. I had no DP.
Then examined to be 8cm, but luckily I was taken straight to delivery ward and told them on arrival that I wanted an epidural immediately and got one within minutes.
But I think it depends on whether an anaesthetist is available to do it and enough midwives are on shift as one needs to stay in your room and monitor u throughout with an epidural, hence why they try to put u off.
I live in the middle of several hospitals and choose the one I wanted to go to based on their epidural rate.
I had 10 lb babies and was terrified of doing it without!
I had the same experience after being induced with my 3rd child. No pain relief given and hubby sent home because midwifes insisted I just 'thought' I was in labour. Noone even checked how dilated I was.
I gave birth on the floor by myself, next to the bed with the curtain pulled around because 'the other mums were trying to sleep'. One of the other mums fetched a midwife and phoned my husband.
Nobody ever apologised.
I had no 4 in a different hospital, but was scared to be left alone in case I gave birth by myself again. The 2nd hospital were wonderfull though.
I recommend going somewhere else, for your piece of mind.
My first labour was similar to the OP's with HCPs not thinking I was in labour etc.
The main difference is that I didn't want an epidural - but to myself, pain was so much more than I anticipated, so thought I would have to give in. Retrospectively, I have 12 hours of contractions (pain) concentrated into 2. 2 hours of intense pain was OK.
Thanks guys, NAR4 that is terrible, I am so glad you were brave enough to have another baby and at a different hospital, you should have got an apology! I am angry for you. Thanks for the advice Viva, I think they had their reasons for some of what they did but they seem to handle it like ou arnt feeling anything. I didn't ask for an epidural at 2cm, I asked when I couldn't take it anymore, and my husband says it wasnt too late, they could have said different things? Or talked to me like a person! :-S
Why do they think we are making it up, flojo- I am wondering how many people are found in the toilet? Surely they could employ a person (without any training) just to keep an eye on the place to make sure nurses or midwifed are called over if the woman isn't able to ask for help or doesn't feel like they can. It seems crazy. I am nervous that if I ask for help or talk to the hospital they will treat me like a child and an idiot again and make me feel depressed like before, and I just want to feel ok so I can look after my LO. I have flash backs to the feeling of desperation and abandonment compounded by the physical pain and it makes me feel like hiding away. Why don't they let your Husband stay? Maybe he could have spoken on my behalf? The only reason They get away with it is because you get your baby at the end? Do women get help for PTSD from labour?
When my youngest was born 5 years ago I asked for an epidural at 4cm (had one with my first) but was told no as she said you need 1-1 care with an epidural and they were busy (one midwife to 3 of us). Thus I wasnt allowed one! In the end my second labour was better without one but that's not the point it did annoy me that I had no choice!
What a horrible experience you have had. Just wanted to say that yes you can get help for ptsd following birth. Speak to your normal gp about it
a few tears may help get your point across and you should be referred for counselling at least to begin with. It really does help.
Also, if you feel you will be treated like a child write down what you want to say so you know you wont forget anything important you want to know. Definitely think you should contact the hospital to arrange to go through your notes as well.
Thanks, I think I will speak to my GP, I want more children so had better do something!
No one can ever guarantee you an epidural. It depends on the other situations going on at the time and how busy the anaesthetic team are. I had a meeting with a consultants before I had ds (second baby, horrific first labour) and the consultant tried to get me to meet with the anaesthetist to talk about epidurals. I asked him if that meant I would have one and he said they would do their best. I was not prepared to be fobbed off or have to wait hours so I opted and pushed for an elective section as at least I knew my pain would be managed throughout. It was a much better experience than my first birth.
It does sound horrible, and I am sorry you were so traumatised.
But fwiw it sounds a bit like my labour with ds2. I was at home, my ctx started just before 7am, every few minutes and kept getting closer together - by 7.15 I knew what was happening and called MW. She said wait an hour and call again, well, it carried on, I called my mother, she took ds1 away (she lived a few minutes away from us) and I called again and they sent someone out to check. Despite thinking I was imgining it, they found I was 4cm dilated when they arrived.
My whole labour was 3 and a half hours, and I asked to be transferred for an epidural as the pain was so dreadful, but they said no chance - there just was not enough time, plus my contractions were so close together they'd have trouble getting one in iyswim? Perhaps that was the case with you too - they probably were thrown by it being so quick and didn't think it would be in time. You have to stay very very still for a few minutes to have an epidural or it can damage your spinal column.
Anyway I refused the G&A as it seemed pointless and I just gave birth on the floor by my bed, thankfully with a lot of kindness and support from the (now 2) midwives, a close friend and another friend.
I felt so awful, it was too quick and I was shaking badly, I suppose I went into shock sort of, I had a heavy bleed as well which they controlled with an injection, after initial panic. I was traumatised too but thankfully it didn't last for too long. Maybe because I was at home and felt like people had done their best, that made a huge difference I think, because I felt more traumatised by ds1's birth WITH an epidural, and that was in hospital.
It was people's attitudes that counted, for me - at home I might have been in appalling pain but I was being taken seriously (well, eventually!) and supported. In the hospital I was treated like I was making a fuss, being stupid, had no idea etc etc etc.
I also had a bad reaction to the epidural the first time, and ended up being very sick for ages, and no one would come to help, I couldn't move, obviously as my legs were useless and ds was crying to be fed
No one came for ages. Plus once you've had an epi, they strap you to a monitor and you can't feel anything or move and then the interventions start - they almost gave me a section because I couldn't feel to push.
It's not all it's cracked up to be. I do wonder if giving birth at home might be a better option for you, than going into hospital again? Just something to think about. You tend to get much nicer treatment at home ime, you feel more in control, and in hospital I felt like something on a conveyor belt - very unwelcome, laughed at, mocked, ignored. Abandoned really.
Totally different experience.
I'm having #3 at home, on midwife's advice as she thinks I'll be too quick this time to get to hospital anyway...you might be the same with your second.
Sorry that was so long
It's true that nobody can ever guarantee you an epidural - my births have also been very fast. I have three children and epidurals have always been available in the unit but nobody could get there quickly enough (with my first - Second and third births were even faster and I knew there really wasn't any point!) Epidurals take time to set up and administer. They don't always work. Have you thought of birthing pool, tens, back massage? In any event many friends I know who had epidurals said they have to wear off to push anyway.
Something that was suggested to me that was an option for very fast labours was being induced, then they can set you all up with an epidural at the same time and ensure you are managed - but I didn't want that at all even if it meant enduring that pain again (and may well lead to more interventions/medicalised labour). Yes it is the most appalling pain and nobody can ever prepare you for how much it hurts - but at least it is over when the baby is born.
I wonder if dealing with the trauma you have suffered might mean that you can face another labour again as I don't think an epidural is necessarily the answer - instead I think you need help to deal with the bad experience, and set yourself up for a properly managed labour with supportive staff next time.
My first labour was augmented with syntocinon after 48hrs stop-start labour with a back-to-back labour. Your description of the pain sounds like what I experienced. I couldn't make myself understood between the contractions to even ask for water. I think I had/have PTSD from it but not bad enough to get counselling.
It put me off having my second child for longer than we'd planned & eventually I got pregnancy semi-accidentally. I mentioned I was interested in having an epidural all the way through my ante-natal appointments. I eventually had to have an induction with syntocinon again & had an epidural at the same time, thank god. It was pain-free until pushing when they let it wear off a bit, but much, much better than before. However, I will not be having another child as I do not want to experience giving birth again (or a CS).
To be honest, it was fear of not being able to get adequate pain relief that made me flee from the NHS to private maternity care. There are no guarantees in this world, but the better availability of staff (both anaesthetists and also guaranteed one-to-one midwife care) - plus the fact that you are a directly paying customer - gives you the best chance of getting it.
Bare in mind that I love in Bath and the nearest private maternity options are/were London, you can see that I was pretty terrified about the lack of pain relief. In the end, DS was an early diagnosed breech (so ELCS): so availability of epidural was not an issue.
It was hearing tales like yours riva that made me discuss with my midwife at my very first antenatal appointment that I was adamant I wanted one. Fortunately for me, she was very open to the idea and wrote it down. It became a running joke between us as every time I saw her I'd remind her, "you got my epidural booked yet?".
Eventually, when I rang her (with second baby) to say I was in labour and I'd be coming in in due course, she met me in the foyer, had already called the anaesthetist, and he was in my room unpacking his things even before I got there.
Mind you, dd is now 14, and I suspect
money has run out things have changed since then!
Tell them as soon as you get to labour ward, don't take no for an answer, keep telling them, very loudly, swearing if necessary until you get it. Trust me when I tell you, if you make enough noise they will get it sorted.
I had a similar birth to yours with my first - I was more scared of the epidural than the contractions so didn't have it!
My second labour was much quicker - DD arrived 10 mins after arriving at hospital! You may find there isn't time for an epidural!
As said upthread, epidurals take time to kick in can slow things down.
I would make it very clear to your midwife that you want an epidural as soon as you arrive and have been examined - and do what clam did!
I'm afraid there's no guarantee of epidural. If anaesthetists busy with emergencies then they might not be able to get to you in time. Sorry.
There's really no need to swear at the staff though.
I mean really? Why do people think its ok to swear at midwives? Believe me if I say I can't get someone an epidural its because the Dr is busy. Swearing at me is not going to change that.
Whilst I'm quite sure that you viva, would be happy for anyone to have an epidural who requested it, many midwives will procrastinate if the woman seems at all unsure, in fact in my second labour I was told I didn't need one and should be able to manage without one, and that there was no one to do one at the moment. I'm afraid I did rather lose my rag at that point, me being in a lot of pain and all that, and having someone tell me that I didn't need an epidural when I felt I wanted and needed one was just a shade too far. Funnily enough the chap was in the room with the kit within about 15 minutes and shortly afterwards I got my sense of humour back and apologised profusely for being a grumpy cow.
Just wanted to share this....
I had an elective c section with my ds 5months ago. When they opened me up they realised I had completely undiagnosed placenta previa. I had had 3 scans during my pregnancy the last one at 35 weeks for something unrelated and not once did anything seem odd. I had chosen to have a section due to a previous long labour.
Basically I had at first one anaesthetist in with me. When I began haemorrhaging severely 3 others rushed in to try and stabilise me for the duration of the operation. I lost 3 litres of blood.
If anyone had wanted an epidural during that time (I was in theatre for 5 hours) I would imagine no amount of swearing or shouting would have got them one.
I nearly died.
And I would imagine several other incidences like mine were no doubt happening in other areas of the hospital.
You simply cannot demand or guarantee an epidural. I think every woman should know that. And that's whatever they tell you.
If you want absolutely guaranteed spinal or epidural you will need to be booked in for a cesarean which is why I chose to have one and it's a good job I did as I absolutely would have died otherwise with the complication I unknowingly had.
I don't mind people swearing when they're in pain, etc. I don't take it personally. But if someone couldn't have an epidural for reasons beyond my control I'd be upset if someone was swearing at me.
But yes, unfortunately I think there are midwives who think its their job to try and keep women going without an epidural and then see it as a success if the woman doesn't have one. I don't, if a woman asks for one I try and am normally able to sort one. If they ask mid contraction, I'll wait for the contraction to be over and ask if they're sure. That's the most procrastinating I do.
"I'm afraid there's no guarantee of epidural. If anaesthetists busy with emergencies then they might not be able to get to you in time. Sorry"
Well that's ok then.
Women just bite on the bullet and scream? Isn't there a bit of an equality issue here? Would men put up with this? Childbirth can be indescribably agony - you can have the flesh sheered off your pelvic bone by the forces of labour and the baby's head. It is severe enough to leave you with PTSD.
It is inhumane that epidurals are not available on request to all women who want them.
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