Last Saturday (1st) I had a phonecall from the police to inform me that DS2's father had committed suicide. We split up when I was pregnant and things were very difficult between us. But he saw DS2 once a week and now my beautiful boy has no daddy.
DS2 is 6 months old so obviously has no idea what's happened. But I feel like I'm grieving on his behalf. I'm finding it hard to play with him or even smile at him because every time I look at him I feel overwhelmingly sad. I just want to hold him tight (he just wants to play).
Sometimes I'm ok. I'm trying to keep busy and when I've got things to do/people to see I can put it to the back of my mind. But when I'm alone it all seems to hit me again.
Today it feels almost like it felt last weekend. I feel like I'm walking around in a dream and just want to cry all the time. Is that normal? I thought I was dealing with it really well but maybe now the shock is starting to wear off.
HHH3 I am so sorry. This is a terrible thing...do you have friends and family to talk to and to be with when it hits hard?
If not, you come on here...and we're here....I can't say things to make tpain go away but I can tell you that my very best friend in the entire world..her Mum died when she was a baby and she was brought up by her Dad.
She is genuinely the most rounded, happy and succesful person I know. She has a lovely DH and two lovely children and though she has fleeting moments of wondering what a Mum would be like...she feels she enjoys looking at pictures of her Mum but has not felt any real sadness because her Dad filled both roles so well.
You will do too...you sound very caring and an excellent parent...DS will be fine...he really, really will.
My son lost his dad on march 30th 2013 to suicide. He was 7months old . We had also broke up during my pregnancy . If you need to talk to someone who is going through the same greif message me anytime .