My baby is 10 weeks old and my GP has just diagnosed me with PND. Both GP and HV have been very good and I am awaiting referrals to the psych service and also to the Tavistock clinic to help with bonding (we live about 100 yards from Tavistock so v. convenient), but I am feeling very low and really struggling.
I had an horrendous pregnancy - hospitalised for the first time (of several) with ferocious hyperemesis the week after I missed my period (!), for the worst month couldn't eat at all and was surviving with IV fluid and food replacement drinks, was bed bound for first five months, house bound for first six months, was taking drugs but still throwing up right to the end, didn't have an hour nausea-free until one memorable Saturday evening about five days before labour began; also had terrible SPD, was on crutches for last couple of months and ended up going into labour ward in a wheelchair. Substantial pain all the time for last three months as none of the effective pain killers were pregnancy safe. Actual labour was miraculously fine (despite much doom-mongering by the consultants) so no birth trauma but don't feel I have come to terms with the pregnancy at all, and have a pathological fear of somehow accidentally getting pregnant again. DH and I have agreed that we would terminate if this happened.
Baby is moderately difficult - doesn't sleep a great deal - but not terrible, we have a bit of a routine and I am quite experienced with babies, but I am not bonding well and haven't had a moment of really enjoying it since he was born. Love my job (lecturer) but have been off work almost continuously since first hospitalisation at the beginning of April last year and feel simultaneously hugely stressed about work stuff and desperate to go back. Nature of the job means it never really stops despite notional leave so feel horribly behind.
Situation further complicated because I can't take anti-depressants (had a manic episode years ago triggered by a single tiny dose, so a big no-no).
Has anyone else had PND after a bad pregnancy (rather than a difficult birth)? Just want to feel that it's going to get better.
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kalidasa · 08/02/2013 10:16
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