Hi cupcake. I'm 38 weeks and ELCS booked for Thursday and feel like I'm going completely crazy. Totally feel the same as you, think awful things, get anxiety attacks and generally want to cry over anything and everything. I've given myself a plan A) let's get through this and see if it's hormones, once I saw my first Ds I was the happiest person on this planet. Really worried as don't think that will happen this time and if it doesn't B) talk to midwife or GP straight away and get help, if that's anti Ds so be it. I have had these in the past for anxiety after loss of mum and stuff and I think the first week had a kind of placebo affect as I felt slightly better knowing I would soon feel better although I did have a few side affects. After 3 or 4 weeks I noticed a real difference and didn't feel as scared and low. What I won't do is suffer in silence as if it's a chemical imbalance it won't get better on it's own and I want to be happy with my little one. Have you recently got worse? I think this last 4 weeks are when terror sets in as you know what's coming soon but still have a long way to go. Good luck let me know how you get on.
Go and talk to you GP ASAP, they can really help, drugs or no drugs, have you spoken to your midwife also? They see this sort of thing all of the time and will be very kind and understanding. Anti-depressents can really help if you need them, after all, you would not walk round with a broken leg/burn etc without treatment.
Write it all down, your worries and concerns, getting them out on a paper does really help. Do you have a friend you could talk to about it all? This would really help also.
Are you getting enough sleep and a good diet? I know the weather has been shite but have you been getting out, even for a drive?
You have to do something or else you will harm yourself and the baby with the stress. You can and you will get through this.
I'm 36 weeks on Sunday and I'm feeling like I'm loosing marbles. My dd is 18 months and is having all sorts of problems and I've litreally made myself ill with worry. I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack any minute now. My dh has already tried to speak to me about going on anti depressants after the baby is born which really upset me. I'm feeling the lowest of the low right now. In bed, shattered, I really don't feel like I can mentally hold it together much longer. What do I do?