I don't feel bored or lonely but..

[Rayn]

Feel like something is missing in my life being a sahp.
Overall it works for us as a family having me at home but I have been racking my brain trying to work out what it is about been at home that makes me restless.
Something is missing! Can't explain what it is but just 'meh'.
Does anyone know what I mean?

[pipnchops]

Oh and on the hobby front, totally agree with this but in reality I'm too exhausted to take up a hobby! I've been a member of a local sports club for the past two years, they practice once a week in the evening and I can rarely muster up the energy to go! Weekends when my DH is around I get a bit of me time... I usually use this time to clean the house which is totally disgusting by the weekend as trying to clean with my DC around is like trying to sweep up leaves in a hurricane! And then random people see me out with my girls and tell me these are the best years of my life, which I do believe but that's kind of worrying

[pipnchops]

I feel this way too. I've been a sahm now for almost five years and I have a 2yo and 4yo. I plan to go back to work when my youngest starts preschool and I'm really looking forward to it, but then that makes me feel so guilty to feel that way! I love them so much and I know when I get to that point I'll miss them and hark back to these halcyon days!

I often soul search when I find myself feeling unfulfilled with the day to day treadmill of being a sahm. I've come up with this conclusion:

Being a sahp is relentless hard work, 24/7, no breaks, no holidays and there is very little, if any, gratitude or appreciation for all the hard work you're doing. Most days I feel like I've worked so hard but I've achieved absolutely nothing. The house is a mess and I have grumpy kids refusing to eat the dinner I've made them. Not a lot of job satisfaction.

The thing I have to remember is I didn't really enjoy my work before I became a sahm. I suppose at least I had a break at weekends and evenings and I had the odd holiday and day off. When I really got sick of it I would look for another job. I changed jobs pretty much every 3 years. So sahm is the longest I've ever been in a job! Maybe I'm just the kind of person who just doesn't like doing the same thing for to too long!

Anyway not sure where I'm going with this but I totally get where you're coming from OP. Life isn't supposed to be easy I guess!

[seizethecuttlefish]

I came on this morning to post exactly the same. I'm surrounded by people and things I do with my son but it feels like a treadmill. I can't really tell where the weeks go. I feel like I don't have any time for me.

[jennybinky]

@MargotLovedTom1 Yes that is exactly it! I'm fulfilled in the fact that I've got dd who I love and enjoy being around (mostly) but I need something else.. maybe being a sahm isn't for me after all? I didn't want it to be a permanent thing just until she went into full time school and I've mostly loved it but I miss being me and not mum. I miss doing things that don't require endless amounts of baby/kid gear. I miss being able to be completely inpatient at times and not having to be so 'grown up'. I miss being able to drop something and say shit without worrying that my child is now going to be out in public dropping toys and saying shit in front of total strangers
Well didn't that turn into quite the rant

[MargotLovedTom1]

Without wanting to sound wanky, for me it was lack of fulfilment.

[jennybinky]

I agree it's probably is that you need a hobby.. I know exactly what you mean I'm more than happy being at home with dd (apart from the days she drives me mad!) but I also feel pretty meh about it some days.
I see my friends going off to work and kind of wish I had something else other than just being mum day in day out. Xx

[xamyrose]

I get you!! Feel like I need a hobby or something!