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stillvicarinatutu · 2022-11-28 19:38:02

My thread from early hours Sunday got blocked from further posts because of the personal attacks on me after 111 ooh gp sent an ambulance to my house . I'd rung 111 and I could t breathe , could t get a full sentence out , the clinician could here me wheezing (I don't have asthma) and sent an ambulance. Not on an emergency I think it was a cat 3 call out , when they got here they put me on a nebuliser for 15 mins but I was still wheezing and my o2 sats kept dropping when I tried to move or talk . They suggested taking me to a&e but I live alone and have 2 dogs , I'd tried ringing round family but no one answered so I couldn't really leave them. I've been struggling ever since and haven't been able to get out of bed other than for the loo or let dogs out . I'd sent messages to my dd, ds , and ex husband to say there was an ambulance coming and could they get in touch to help me with dogs . My dd was angry that day because my son un be known to me is home from Thailand for Xmas and she had planned to come visit and surprise me but when I fell Iill the day before she was really pissed off with me and sent some not nice messages as if it was my fault . On Sunday my son messaged to ask if I'd got some sleep . It was 6am when the ambulance left , and I slept on and off throughout Sunday. I rang gp this morning and they gave me antibiotics for a chest infection but I'm still weak, wheezy, I think it might be covid. Neither of my kids , or me ex husband (who I normally get along well with still and we still speak regularly) - none of them have even messaged to ask if I'm ok . My dd replied to my 2am message asking if a nebuliser was an inhaler and then I've had nothing . Dd is 25. Ds is 30. Ex is living in my house , I'm paying debts and I'm in rented. Not one of them has so much as text to see if I'm ok. I'm absolutely gutted this is how little they care . I fought tooth and nail for my ds through school, college and uni because he has asd. I was always there for them both , but when dd left for uni her dad and I separated and I moved out - she took it badly and after the first year of uni dropped out . She went back to her dads (our marital home) and from then on he was the parent who could do no wrong while I was the wicked home wrecker. He is happily in another relationship. I'm still paying everything. I'm in rented . I'm not in a relationship and live alone and I cannot see the prospect of meeting anyone now . Dh and I have been separated 8 years. I had a relationship with someone else but they were abusive and I left after 3 years living together as I had no autonomy to do anything. I am laid here , in pain, struggling to breathe, knowing if I ring oohs they'll just send a bloody ambulance and want to take me in when I can't leave my dogs , I've no one to ask . I've no shopping in . I've no food or medicines . I've used all my paracetamol and the chemist can't bring my antibiotic until tomorrow. I'm overdosing on salbutamol which they left me and I'm shaky , everything hurts and breathing and talking or moving hurts and is impossible. And my family don't give a fuck apparently. Work have rung twice waking me both times , I'm meant to be working from home tomorrow and my manager said today I sounded awful and shouldn't think about it but if I go on sick I'm going to be disciplined because I've been off already this year with an athritic knee that was so swollen I was immobile. Theyv E told me I can't take any more sick leave or else .... I have realised today that if I dropped dead , no one would know . I'd be one of those sad stories that get found weeks later . My poor dogs . I'm am completely alone in the world . It's the worst feeling I've ever had .

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The OP's grateful for all the support she's had on this thread but has asked if we can take it down as she realises it's fairly outing. She's said that she's seeking medical advice. Thanks to everyone who responded.

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