I have 2 girls (10 & 5 yo) last 11 years I am not enjoying my life nor being mum ( very limited moments maybe) I feel I am not designed for this job.. I never connected my first child and I believe 10 years passed still I don't like/love her 99% of the time. . maybe 2nd child bit different I feel emotional I am more connected to her but overall I feel I let both of them down..because I don't enjoy being mum+I don't have required qualities and I realised huge mistake ..people like me shouldn't be parent =I am failure. I came from very unhappy broken family and I remember very little about my childhood (maybe selective memory). I always shut + thread my kids badly (verbal abuse mostly.. I argue non stop my oldest..I don't find her smart+I always criticise her > bad role model overall ) Most of the time I want to leave my family and run away (thanks God their dad loving and much better then me and Im sure he will do better job then me ) I read books + do exercise + think a lot always promise my self such; I treat them better today or I won't get angry..I'll be more patient etc.. but I never able to put in action ..at the end I FEEL HUGE GUILT and feeling of SHIT being failure.. Don't know what to do ( I need to re-create myself !) how to change..Is there anyone feels same way and what you guys doing for change ? Thanks
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