One miscarriage at 9 weeks followed by a late miscarriage at 15 weeks undetected until 20 weeks

[Jasmine3105]

Hi all

This is my first time posting. Im a little lost atm

I had a miscarriage earlier in the year at 9 weeks and was absolutely heartbroken and not expecting it as i am a mother to two healthy young boys. I sucked it up and put it down to just on of those things that happens and probably wont happen again. I miscarried naturally on the same day i started bleeding

We tried straightaway and were thrilled to become pregnant again. Everything was normal and i had my twelve week scan and saw the babys heartbeat.
Everything was perfect and i could feel the baby moving (or what i thought were movements). I had three days left until my 20 week scan and i came from work and wiped away blood. I was horrified but didnt feel any pain so was thinking positive. I went to AE the gynae and he did a scan and i could still feel movements and felt positive. But he told me that unfortunately he disnt think it was good news as i had fresh blood during the speculum test and baby wasnt moving on scan. I felt absolutely devastated and the whole night i cried and didnt sleep.
I was asked to come back again for a confiration scan which confirmed baby had passed away. I was told to come in two days and be induced but again my body naturally went into labour and i delivered my baby boy

He was 14.6 weeks old and had passes away for 5 weeks and i had no idea. The labour was awful but i would have gone through ten times worse if i could have my baby back. It wasnt meant to be and im dealing with it trying to figure out what happened and i know i will never be able to pinpoint it. He was perfectly formed with all his fingers and toes and the word miscarried really doesnt sum up this experience

Im so depressed and angry and upset all at once. I dont know what has happened. I have no health problems and it seems my body is working well as both times i miscarried naturally wthin 24 hours of onset symptoms

I want to try again straight away but is it to soon? I want to try as i feel like it will make me feel positive and concentrate my emotions onto a positive new beginning but im so scared of miscarrying again

I have only shared this miscarriage with a few close people as i feel embarassed and ashamed especially after being so happy and talking about my lil one and my maternity leave and planning my future out

I guess i just wanted to share this to take it off my chest

[purpleviolet1]

I had cancer a few years ago and luckily survived it, all clear so far so a successful pregnancy would be really nice after such a difficult few years.

[purpleviolet1]

Please don't be sorry. And don't feel bad for how you are feeling..

After the first miscarriage I tried after 1 cycle and caught the 2nd cycle of trying.

No successful pregnancies yet!

[Jasmine3105]

Thankyou so much for replying

I know i sound bad for saying i feel embarassed. I just didnt expect to have another miscarriage.. I thought it just could not happen again boy was i wrong
Im sorry about your miscarriages- how did you cope? When did you start trying again? And did you have any successful pregnancies? Sorry for asking so many questions... X

[purpleviolet1]

I am so sorry to hear you have gone through that. I've had two early miscarriages (12 and 6 weeks) and they were hard enough.

Please give yourself time to grieve and most of all
Don't be embarassed. Talk and let it out if you feel like it.

I don't believe there is any issue with trying again, with early miscarriages they advise you to wait one period for dating purposes. I think you should wait at least one period to allow your body to gain some strength.

Wishing you all the best xx