my Dad was a young man when I was born. Really good dad. Not much to complain about. Since I became a mother I’ve got some memories coming up to me and making me feel very sad and uncomfortable
- I was little girl but physically developed Fast. My dad gave me a bath and then stood me up and decided to examine my pubic hair. I had a lot and maybe it worried my parents. I vividly remember him telling me not to move and picking one hair and sort pullin it a bit to see. I don’t know what for.
- I was a bit older and one day really felt cuddly and needed my dad. I tried to get close and he made a comment about me being like a cat trying to get a stroke or something like that : I don’t remember exact words ! It must have been like 25 years ago. But it made me feel like I’m doing something inappropriate and since then tried to not to get too close to my dad.
- older … maybe 13 . I was at thW computer and he was leaning somewhere and said goodbye and I thought he’s gonna kiss me goodbye but his tongue went into my ear. I don’t know if he was joking or what . It made me very upset I remember when he gone I put my face in my hands and tried to disappear. I can’t remember if I cried . I was angry and I felt disgusting.
and how do I understand it.
he’s like a perfect dad . Like supportive does everything for us. I always had bad abusive partners. I’ve got a child with a toxic narc.
I feel like i am on a crossroads. I think I need therapy .
do you guys think it will help ! ? I have flashbacks but can’t establish if it’s bad or it’s happenes to kids on regular basics