Will the GP take me seriously?

[HiiiippppyDippyDop]

I've had an issue with food for years but it took a toll when I left a DV relationship 3 years ago. I grew up with my mum calling me a fat little bitch ( I wasnt, I was just bigger than my skinny sisters ) and my ex would constantly call me fat and it had stuck with me for years

I'm not fat at all, I'm 5'2 and weigh 7st 5lb. Yet every time I look in the mirror or look at my body all I see is fat. Everytime I put my clothes on and see my clothes size I'm in disbelief that I fit into small clothes.

I've always binged for a day or so then not eaten for a few days. And so on and so on.

It's been worse these past few months and I know I'm on the verge of being underweight,I dont look good, I'm too skinny now

But I cant stop. I try and force myself to eat but I cant. Everyone has that negative and positive voice in their head dont they? I dont mean I hear voices but I do have a running commentary in my head which constantly tells me I'm a fat bitch. If I've had a bad day with my children my head will say I dont deserve food that day and I go with it even though I know it's not right

I'm worried if I go to the gp theyll either say I'm mental coz of the running commentary or theyll say because I'm not underweight theres nothing they can do

My friends and children have started to notice I dont eat and i really dont want my children growing up having an issue with food

[trickyex]

I would see your GP, he/she wont judge you and will offer some kind of help. Your best bet is CBT or similar, help for eating disorders as an adult isnt great IME, in fact it was awful where I am.
You could also try BEAT and this organisation who were helpful
www.anorexiabulimiacare.org.uk/

[JiltedJohnsJulie]

I honestly don't know if they would help you but I'm hoping they'd hopefully offer counselling or CBT although the waiting list may be long.