Antenatal/postnatal depression
Worried my baby is odd looking
trafficcone34 · 27/10/2022 18:33
Hello. I'm five days postpartum. Im so so ashamed to admit this - and please no hate, I already hate myself - but I can't help but feel like my baby is really odd looking. So red, and like a little old man. I thought it in the hospital, but I was so overwhelmed with love I didn't care. Since being back home, I feel like the rose tinted glasses have fallen off, and I just feel so upset. People have even said he looks like a little old man, and so red! My mum even exclaimed 'oh no he's going bright red again!' and one of the midwives. I just wish I could feel that in love feeling everyone has, and I wish I felt he was beautiful. When all the NCT women messaged photos of their babies everyone said how beautiful they were, but not for mine. I'm reluctant to even introduce him to people, in case people say other things, I feel so fragile. I can't stop crying. I want to be deliriously happy - he is here and is healthy and I am so lucky. Why do I feel like this? Needless to say, I love him and would literally do anything for him, I just hate that I feel this way and can't even talk to my partner about it. Any advice mumsnet? I'm at such a low ebb and I hate this about myself
trafficcone34 · 27/10/2022 23:05
I am completely overwhelmed by the love and support ive felt through this thread. Continuing to laugh and cry in equal measure. I wish I could reply to each and every one of you but failing that - just know it means so so so much to me. I have a feeling that IL be reading through these messages a lot over the next few days when I'm feeling wobbly. Love to you all, and thank you from me and my little yoda. We had a nice dance in the kitchen this evening and I gave him an extra big kiss on his nose xxx
Herejustforthisone · 27/10/2022 23:17
trafficcone34 · 27/10/2022 23:05
I am completely overwhelmed by the love and support ive felt through this thread. Continuing to laugh and cry in equal measure. I wish I could reply to each and every one of you but failing that - just know it means so so so much to me. I have a feeling that IL be reading through these messages a lot over the next few days when I'm feeling wobbly. Love to you all, and thank you from me and my little yoda. We had a nice dance in the kitchen this evening and I gave him an extra big kiss on his nose xxx
I love your update. Honestly, day five is a twat of a postpartum day. I felt like it’s when my hormones were worst. Things can only get better. On my day 5 PP I caught an advert about baby bears being trapped and forced to perform for awful, awful humans and it made me cry so hard I was wiped out for ages. 🫢
Things will level, your world will slide back onto its axis and all will be well. Also you lovely little alien will become the absolute apple of your eye. Promise.
FusilliPasta · 28/10/2022 07:56
God yes day 5 is an awful day. I remember crying because the baby was crying whilst I was trying to dress them (hadn’t done it before as been too poorly post birth so hubby had done it all) and I felt like an utter failure because all I wanted to do was put a sleepsuit on my baby and I couldn’t do it right.
Vapeyvapevape · 28/10/2022 08:44
I'm so glad this thread has made you feel better, being a new mum is such a shock to the system and we're all fed the fluffy, perfect idea of what having a new baby should be like when the reality is nothing like it.
Day 5 baby blues with snot bubble crying over everything and anything is a toughy but it does pass.
Enjoy your gorgeous boy ❤️
Floydthebarber · 28/10/2022 09:00
Dd1 was a beautiful newborn, she really was and even after being in the birth canal for a while and ventouse she had an amazingly round head!
Dd2 was also beautiful. When the midwife came for the first home visit she said that the scrunched up face will go and it often happens after a very quick birth. I thought, "what?! She doesn't have a scrunched up face!"
Newborns can look properly odd sometimes and nothing like they do even a few weeks later. But the few days after birth are incredibly tough, your hormones will be going crazy and everything will make you cry or irritate you or even make you really angry. It is normal, just get yourself a comfirtable chair and enjoy cuddling your lovely baby.
TickTockBaby · 28/10/2022 18:02
trafficcone34 · 27/10/2022 23:05
I am completely overwhelmed by the love and support ive felt through this thread. Continuing to laugh and cry in equal measure. I wish I could reply to each and every one of you but failing that - just know it means so so so much to me. I have a feeling that IL be reading through these messages a lot over the next few days when I'm feeling wobbly. Love to you all, and thank you from me and my little yoda. We had a nice dance in the kitchen this evening and I gave him an extra big kiss on his nose xxx
Just keep plodding @trafficcone34
You are all they need. 🌸
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