to feel sad

[coralk]

hi,

today is my daughter's 1st birthday. they were born extremely premature and both had a very lengthy hospital stay. Anyone who has been through the neonatal unit will know how traumatic this is.

I have been doing okay, although have been diagnosed with PTSD and have been prescribed anti depressants. I am so proud of my twins.

today has been a great day with family, I've done well all day despite knowing I would probably feel a bit overwhelmed and emotional. I managed to hold it in all day until we got home where I had a bit of a cry.

DHs brother, who was at twins gathering so has seen us today, rung DH just now and asked him to go to the pub with some friends and their cousins. DH says yes straight away, leaving me to put both twins to bed and our older 3 year old son.

I just feel really sad that he has left me alone today. I'm now just here with the thoughts and memories of last year. he said he won't get too drunk. I'm normally very laid back regarding dh going out but I just am not up for being by myself tonight, waking up with all 3 children when since the twins have been born I've not gone out myself whereas he has. Mostly I feel sad he would rather go out today of all days then stay with me.

[coralk]

thank you. its been tough but we got there and the girls are doing well now thankfully

[safarisogoody]

Happy birthday to your girls. I guess you are feeling overwhelmed about all the could have been scenarios.
I do not know your partner or relationship so don't want to comment but just wanted to send you some good wishes and hopefully some sleep!,,