Mine is health anxiety, had a very specific trigger and I've managed it quite well. DS is now a toddler (16 months) and I've just completely unravelled.
He was poorly recently, something that initially seemed scarier than it actually was thankfully but since then I've gone really downhill. It doesn't help that we are waiting for a hospital clinic appointment later in summer for some tests (we've known about this since before he was born and it's to check he doesn't have a condition which so far he doesn't show any symptoms of thankfully) and just the thought of it makes me feel sick.
I'm constantly panicked. Like, constantly. I feel like someone is squeezing my heart in my chest, feel dizzy and sick. I'm utterly panicked that there's something wrong with him sickness wise and I feel like I'm just waiting until he's going to be taken away from me and I can't bear it.
Every little thing he does I'm over-analysing - he's started making an excited wheeze when he's excited and I've convinced myself it's a sign of the condition he's going to be tested for. He also does fast breathing when he can't get to sleep or is getting excited/cross/agitated and even though I know it's not how he breathes normally, ditto with that.
I feel sick with anxiety all of the time and I don't know how to combat it, my usual managing coping strategies aren't working. I've contacted my counsellor to see if I can start seeing her again (stopped as I was managing so well), but I don't know what to do with myself until then.
I'm tearful and spend all my time looking up things on mumsnet, or googling which I know I shouldn't do and nothing reassures me. I've now started worrying about his development as well. It's like when my rational brain kicks in over something I have to find something else to be anxious about. I love him to bits and he's the light of my life, but I'm finding the days so hard at the moment.
How do you cope with it?
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Please help. AIBU to think it's impossible to cope with health anxiety when you have a baby? How do you do it?!
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Pivotthesofa · 11/05/2021 15:06
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Am I being unreasonable?
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