Today I asked my line manager for feedback (I’m in 3 months probation in my first senior role) and his general words were:
‘Really happy with your work and performance. I’ve been meaning actually to get some time with you, we’ll go off site and have a chat about other things’
I asked ‘oh ok, are there things we need to chat about?’
‘Yeah, it’s just some development points and we’ll go off site so we can have a proper chat about it. It’s some points about interaction with the team and how we can work on that. It’s some points for development that you can work on’
I said ok and that’s fine, we’ll put some time in etc but now I’m in a flap.
For reference, I’m socially awkward and this is a very senior role and a big step up from my previous roles.
I’m now running over every interaction I’ve had at work and analysing how professional/ unprofessional I’ve been and who I’ve possibly pissed off etc etc.
Things that conflate the situation:
I have generalised anxiety disorder
This week has been very stressful and I’m uneven mentally because of that.
I feel unsteady at the moment because I’m desperate to do well in the role
I think I’ve been too loud/ too ‘up’ and too jokey in the office but have no way to gauge if this is the case.
I might have been too keen to point out errors on things from previous teams
I may have celebrated too much when things go well or talked about it too much
I could have been too short/ snippy with someone
I could come off as cold sometimes to people
I’m always busy and have a lot on. People are very aware of this which could make me unapproachable
I may have been too friendly with junior staff on my team (not in an in appropriate way!)
I may not have been friendly enough with the other teams
It just might be really obvious I’m not ready for this role and he’s going to demote me (this is my biggest fear)
All of the above.
There’s no time to get together before next week so I now have that pit of the stomach anxiety about it. Something like this wouldn’t trigger me unless I was feeling unsteady in the first place, so that’s a factor.
Wibu to talk to him on Monday and ask him what it is specifically I need to work on? I’m now scared to speak normally in case that’s the thing that’s flagging up to him
This isn’t normal, is it?
AIBU?
To Ask What My Manager Meant?
Mumbojumbob · 27/09/2018 18:21
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