I worked with a client at the end of last year who did some major damage to my professional confidence.
Up to that point I'd had largely positive feedback about my work and any negative feedback was reasonably constructive.
The client I worked with was consistently unhappy with everything I wrote for her. I found it very frustrating as nothing was ever good enough, everything was sent back to me to endlessly rewrite without a single piece of work being accepted.
I needed the money from the contract but I called regular meetings with her to suggest that perhaps I wasn't the best person to work with them if she was so consistently unhappy. But she would say that things were fine and that she wanted to continue with the work.
Having spoken to other people recently who worked at the organisation they reported exactly the same thing. And mentioned how relieved they were moving on to other jobs to feel that their work was met with approval again.
She admitted herself that she was a very controlling person and as CEO should be delegating but ended up wanting to rewrite everything herself that other people wrote for her - in an ideal world she would have cloned herself and taken on all our roles.
We ended up parting on fairly positive terms, she was a positive referee for me for my current client. My client in between were perfectly happy with all the work I did for them.
But now I'm writing for another quite difficult client and I can feel myself doubting my own work. I've got my first major report to do and I am dillydallying, feeling terrified that I am actually rubbish.
How do you get over this when you're largely at home working, alone, just submitting finished pieces of work? How do you recoup your self-esteem?
I know that my work has been acceptable to others. I just can't quite move on from this bad experience .
I really should concentrate on the good feedback I've had, rather than the bad - I think it just wore me down and being freelance and based mainly at home, I didn't really have any colleagues internally to discuss it with so it gradually eroded away at my confidence.
Sorry for long me, me, me. If anyone is still awake and has any words of advice/experience to offer I'd really appreciate it!
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How do you keep your professional self-esteem healthy as a freelancer without the appraisals/feedback/peer contact of an employee?
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hattyyellow · 14/07/2008 15:47
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