Please may I have a handhold?

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2018SoFarSoGreat Tue 23-Apr-19 20:52:39

I found a lump in my breast two weeks ago. Had moved so needed to find a new doctor, took a couple of days but found someone local who looked fine. I was so very reassured when she examined the lump I'd found high on the side of my breast! She said - and I quote: I see why you were worried but no need. Nothing to worry about there. Not in the breast. It is a lipoma - fatty tissue. Since it is is quite large we shall set up an ultrasound, but don't worry. 99.9% sure it is benign. Hugs.

So I stopped worrying. Yesterday was my appointment. I got on the table and within 60 seconds the tech stopped and said "Oh. That is in the breast. I need to talk to my colleague. Came back and told me to go right to the Breast Department upstairs. I got there and gave my name, and I heard them say 'Routine or Diagnostic" - reply was Diagnostic. They skipped me through the line and did an immediate mammogram, then straight to another room for a full ultrasound. The the person said "let me get the doctor to explain the findings.

Doctor came in (just lovely) and said she needed to take a closer look at this lump, it is definitely something, and that they were going to biopsy right now. They did. And inserted a tracker (!) just in case. She promised to call me with results within 2-3 days. Of course, I am a wreck and in shock, because I believed the stupid first doctor! But we shall wait.

Got to work this morning and see two emails: medical team emailed me results. Both mammogram and ultrasound summary say "Highly likely to indicate malignancy” – and now I wait for the call to confirm that.

This is just shit. Shit. I have to be at work and cheerful and listen to other people’s problems, and I just want to howl.

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TwitterQueen1 Tue 23-Apr-19 21:02:15

This way for lumps and bumps support >>>>>>> cancer support thread

Bear in mind it still may not be cancer but we'll be with you all the way if it is.

Persimmonn Tue 23-Apr-19 21:02:49

flowers I’m so sorry this is happening. That is really shit. Can you take a day off tomorrow? Do you have a supportive network of family/friends? If you want to howl, you should allow yourself to do whatever you want. Everything else can wait.

31133004Taff Tue 23-Apr-19 21:14:53

Fucking hell! Unless you work in a winery, go home. You are number one important now. 🌷

mommybear1 Tue 23-Apr-19 21:16:00

Handhold thanksgin

Aimily Tue 23-Apr-19 21:18:33

Sending all the hugs and hand holds you need. Fingers crossed for you x

MrsMozartMkII Tue 23-Apr-19 21:21:23

Everything here crossed for you lass.

2018SoFarSoGreat Tue 23-Apr-19 21:22:25

thank you!

I'm in Trumpville, and it is Employee Appreciation Week (that's a whole other thread that will have your heads reeling!) and within 30 minutes of getting the emails I had to run a Quiz Game for 50 people, and be nice. And give out trophies. And I just want to run away.

God. My heart is just pounding. I thought I'd be okay with whatever this is but I lied.

TQ: I was searching for you and the right thread and my fingers must be shaking so much I could not find it. Shall be over there shortly.

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verybookish Tue 23-Apr-19 21:25:42

I did not want to read and run. Sending you a massive hand hold!!

justilou1 Tue 23-Apr-19 21:27:10

OMG, how distressing! And to find out by email!!! You poor thing! Big hugs!!!

NoYo Tue 23-Apr-19 21:28:38

Wishing you all good thoughts flowers

TwitterQueen1 Tue 23-Apr-19 21:30:31

We're in Topics / Health / General Health

Maybe call in sick if you want to? Though sometimes it's best to keep busy.

The waiting is the worst part. If it is bad news it's always better when you have plan. And if it's a false alarm we'll send you on your way.

BoreOfWhabylon Tue 23-Apr-19 21:35:05

Oh 2018, I remember your lovely threads from last year. I am here for hand-holding duties flowers

mummymayhem18 Tue 23-Apr-19 22:33:02

A big handhold 🤝 from me as well. I hope everything is ok. Thinking of you ❤️

2018SoFarSoGreat Thu 25-Apr-19 20:16:35

thank you all for your kindness.

I am the luckiest woman! Just got the call that it is benign. NOT cancer. A very rare type of tumor that mimics cancer - granular cell tumor - and has never been seen by my doctor (in 25 years of practice!) nor the first pathologist working on my biopsy bits. It must be removed and soon, because it is fast growing, but who cares? It is BENIGN.

I am crying tears of relief. I'd imagined the next bit of my life to be oh so different. I'm so very lucky. A gift from the heavens, my doctor said.

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MrsMozartMkII Thu 25-Apr-19 20:27:05

Oh Yes!

Bloody wonderful news lass. There might've been a slight blurring of my vision when I read your update flowers

WLAH Thu 25-Apr-19 20:30:17

Great update

BoreOfWhabylon Thu 25-Apr-19 20:32:59

Oh I am so pleased for you! Hurrah! flowers

Aimily Thu 25-Apr-19 20:35:58

That is great news!!! So happy for you!

EllieFredrickson Thu 25-Apr-19 20:38:45

Great news! flowers

mummymayhem18 Thu 25-Apr-19 22:22:09

That's excellent news. I bet that's a huge weight off you mind. Have a 🍷and relax ☺️ x

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