Hi everyone, I have name changed for this because I'm so embarrassed and ashamed.
I am now six stone overweight. Obviously it's really affecting my life. I have had health problems that can recur if I don't sort myself out. Last September after being 3 stone lighter than I am now something just snapped in my mind and I started eating and basically haven't stopped since.
I think part of it was because I seemed to be on a neverending diet for five years going up and down and with the health thing in the middle. I always seemed to be making a fresh start and it just started driving me crazy.
I feel like I've been here too many times and that I just don't have it in me to do this all over again and since I always fell by the wayside every other time, what's the point?
I'm driving myself mad. I hate myself, I hate what I've become.
Up until I was 28 I was really sporty and energetic, although biggish (size 14). Since then my weight has gone up and up and up, then down, then up and so on. That was 20 years ago. A lot of things happened then. I moved from more active work to a sedentary job. I also moved from living in to house share and not having sporting facilities on tap. I also became more lonely then because I was used to living and working around a number of people.
I tried Slimming World earlier this year, spent a lot of money and it was a waste of time because I had no motivation. The weather hasn't helped as I like walking but this constant rain is just getting me down so much.
I seem to not be able to look to the future and say to myself - such and such is happening in 8 weeks, have a goal of losing a stone by then. Or rather I do set the goal, then the day after I'm eating cake. I also appear to have totally lost any kind of long term thinking.
I'm on My Fitness Pal and Map My Walk, but this time around I have no motivation to do it.
I don't feel depressed, just totally lacking my mojo. And I don't know what to do. I know I've got health issues because of my massive size and I know I'm creating more problems for myself.
Does anyone have any suggestions? I'd be eternally grateful for some! Thanks
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OtherNameForThis · 10/04/2018 10:05
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