What's the point?

[PhyllisWig]

Sure I'll get no replies as I never do but fuck it. Need to vent.

I lost 5 stone over 2 years. First 4 fairly easily, struggled with the last one and only reached goal after the 8 week blood sugar diet.

Goal was very top end of bmi so 10 stone. I am short (5 3) but not small. I was happy being very slightly over my bmi so aimed to hover between 10 and 10 7. Size 12.

Maintained easily enough from August to Christmas in that range. Gained 5lb at Christmas. Ok, that happens so sensible January. Not weightloss calories but not over eating. Gained another 5lbs since then. Weighed in this morning and am 11 2. Wt actual fuck. The added insult is I've had a tummy bug all last week so was eating really weirdly.

I fucking give up. I know things have changed - I've a knee injury, I had a health scare, my commute has doubled and I've lost my lunch break so on my fat arse all day. But I'm eating less than 1500 calories most days. I appreciate all the tdee stuff (mine should be around 1600 sedentary) and that some people just don't need much food but fml if I can't have the odd hot cross bun or Mother's Day meal out.

When I was fat my weight actually stayed level and I'd self correct easily. Now it's shite.

I am so upset. I know maintenance was about finding an even keel and was hard work but I didn't expect to gain weight just be existing. I may as well be fat again

[Bluntness100]

Well hang on. First huge congrats on losing five stone, that's a major achievement.

How did you feel when you did it? Compared to when you were five stone heavier? Did you like that feeling? Do you really want to be five stone heavier?

Part of your weight gain is possibly water if you've been unwell. But let's be honest you haven't gained ten pounds through the occassional hot cross bun and a Mother's Day meal out. It must be more than that.

So if you like to be a certain size, then ten pounds is nothing to lose. It's a max of five weeks if you lose two pounds a week. It's probably less because you may have some water weight. Don't give in. For all the reasons uou lost in in the first place.

[Peaceandl0ve]

I feel your pain but dont let this be the time you let it slide. Make this the time you dig deep, be the strong woman that you are, snd get back on the plan! By May, such a short time in comparison with last time, you will be back to yourself and you will feel awesome for your efforts.

[Pattygonia]

Really don’t give up! You have done brilliantly to lose the 5 stones - that is a major achievement. As you say, maintenance was ok from Aug to xmas, so I’m sure you can do it again once you get back in that weight range

[PhyllisWig]

Thank you all - I had a bit of a cry on dh as well and he was very helpful too. His observation was that I'm massively less active and am picking more at the kids left overs/treats etc. I also haven't been weighing myself everyday which always works to keep me honest.

I have a physio appointment for the knee on Friday which hopefully will be the start of the activity side of stuff. I may concentrate on just keeping level until after the Easter holidays, get my head back in the right place then work to shift the excess then.

Thank you