Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck (I could go on for a while!)
I've always been very overweight even as a teen (not my parents fault...I was a sneaky twat) but I currently weigh 25st...TWENTY FUCKING FIVE
I'm amazingly good at burying my head in the sand and saying I'm fine and I'll do something and I never do so I say it to myself again but it's suddenly occurred to me (told you, I bury my head in the sand) that I'm literally killing myself and this weight will kill me.
I'm absolutely fucking petrified and I don't know what to do
Well, when I had the sudden fear that was what prompted me to lose loads of weight. It can do for you. I had never lost weight. I was one of those for whom diets didn't work. They did when I wanted it badly enough.
I'm not being harsh by the way. I remember waking up in a cold sweat at the thought I was pretty likely to have a heart attack in the near future. I have no idea why that popped into my head. And the chances are even higher that id not have a major event but I almost certainly would develop diabetes. I imagined myself sitting in the doctors surgery being given diet advice and absolutely kicking myself for letting it get to this point. For not doing something when I could.
I'm just about to be diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. I know I'm hugely overweight, I know diabetes was inevitable at my size. But I did fuck all about it. But I can tell you it's freaked me out something awful. I have a life altering disease and it's all my own fault. Don't be me.
I've tried so many times (I've bought about 12 pedometers and 3 fitbits...each time promising myself this is it, this is the change I need
I'm 28...I feel like I've fucked everything up already...I'm so scared I'm going to drop dead...or go blind...or something...so scared and so worried about how to start, what do I do to start!? I need to do something so badly, I feel like it's taken away my life and destroyed my 20s
Phew thought I'd scared you away. Op you are young. The actual risk to you is still quite minor.. The big risk is that you will wake up ten years from now and nothing will have changed. Then your panic will be real. This time next year you could have lost six stone.
I've got nearly 20 years on you. You're young, there is time to change. I wish I had. I've started just moving around a bit more. I know it's hard at this size but start small. I will have to drastically change my diet overnight but generally I try to adjust more slowly. It's easier to cut out things one at a time than go mad and live on lettuce.
tomorrow can be day one of the rest of your life. You're young and yes very overweight but by this time next year you could easily have lost 10 stone. Be close to a healthy weight and be in a MUCH healthier body and mind.
I would suggest booking into the doctors. You can probably get a gym membership and diet subscription through the NHS.
Although I agree that weight loss is mainly through diet you sound like you're mainly worried about your health so I would make positive changes in your diet and exercise and I feel the exercise will help your mental space.
Lego as biwi said we will all desperately want to come on and tell you what worked for us. You will need to experiment and discover what works for you. What are the positives? For example mine are that I actively like salad but I like chocolate more and although I am an exercise avoider if I have somewhere to be I can walk for miles, lugging bags with me. Tell me a positive about your situation that will help you.
I'm a lazy cook...I fucking hate cooking so salad and ready meals and take aways are what I live off but it's the sheer quantity of food...I had a subway salad for lunch...with chocolate bar, crisps, a sandwich and a cookie ffs
I didn't need that but in my head I did
I have the opportunity to walk a lot at work but I don't, I get taxis, buses or just don't go far