Why do I eat too much? Am I wierd or just flawed like everyone else?

[Pleasedontbelikeme]

I am very overweight. I lost 4.5 stone last year in about 6 months, but still needed to lose another 5 stone-ish to be in the healthy BMI bracket. Since Christmas I've put about a stone back on and I don't understand why I can't get motivated again. It felt so good to lose all that weight. I felt healthier, I didn't feel excessively hungry and actively enjoyed the process of tracking food and being careful. Now I've slipped back into bad habits. I eat secretly, whenever DH goes out, as well as normal meals. I don't really massively binge, like you read about people with binge eating disorder do, but will eat a full bag of sweeties and constantly graze on cheese and crackers, or nuts, or bread.... or whatever is about that I fancy. I DO NOT understand what changes in my head to move from the dedicated dieter to secret nosher. Are lots of others like this too or am I wierd? If you are like me, but better understand yourself and why you switch between the two states of mind, could you explain it to me? I'm trying to understand what is going on with my behaviour because I just don't get it.

[PoptartPoptart]

I'm the same as you op and I don't get it either.
I'm all or nothing, I'll either be really really good or really bad, there's no in between for me.
Sorry that's not really helpful but at least you know it's not just you!

[Toobloodytired]

Don't feel so bad on yourself!

I have eaten in the last 2 days, 4 Easter eggs, copious amounts of chocolate bars too.
I'm a fat bastard & can't get a bloody grip!!

[user1482079332]

Your body doesn't want you to lose weight and changing eating habits is hard when we have that comfort zone to slip back to. Very few people lose weight and keep it off forever for those reasons. Maybe instead of investing time and effort into another pattern of eating try therapy to understand your relationship with food and how you've developed these eating habits.