I started of the year with such good intentions to eat healthily and exercise but it just hasn't happened, I feel like such a failure. A few years ago I lost quite a bit of weight and today I have weighed myself and I have put it all back on, I'm nearly the heaviest I've ever been. I feel so miserable. Despite this I've been really struggling to stay motivated (I think in part because I'm quite down due to other things going on) and I just seem to constantly be starting again and getting heavier and heavier. I look so ugly and fat and I feel so embarrassed at how much weight I have put on. I thought if I posted this and took a bit of accountability it might help. It would also be great if there is anyone else in a similar boat so we can motivate each other. So here goes, I am 5ft 3in and 11st 6lbs I will be calorie counting and I have cleared all unhealthy food out of my cupboards today and I really want to do this, tomorrow is a real fresh start. Anyone else??