Please tell me I'm being a bell end!!!

[RavioliOnToast]

God, I go on holiday on 2nd September and I've lost zero weight. I haven't really been able to stick to it because of pilot so much pressure on myself.

When I come back from holiday I really want to start the gym, look after myself more, sleep more and quit smoking (pointless stopping before I go away as I'll start again out there), I'm just so so nervous about starting the gym! I haven't got anybody I can go with, I haven't been in ages and ages and never to this new one. I want to run! I want to run around and be able to keep some kind of a pace but I'm so so unfit!

How did you all get motivation to just start something. Zero shits given and all that?

[sunshineandmarbles]

Honestly, no one at the gym cares at all about what you are doing!

Everyone is so focussed on themselves - whether that's on their own routine, on being exhausted, or on how they look to other people - that they don't even notice other people.

Does the gym you're thinking of joining offer an induction session? Doing one of those and feeling comfortable with how the machines works has always put my mind at rest, and made it less intimidating.

You can do it!

[Bamboofordinneragain]

This might not be helpful... But I lost quite a lot of weight a couple of years back, and NEVER went to the gym. I had tried many times before, always combined with another gym membership, great resolutions to go three times a week, blah, blah. Then I just went for it, and simply ate less. A lot less, and I did no gym at all until the weight came off. It took me six months to lose 27kg, and the only exercise I did was quite a bit of walking.
I think the trouble with the gym is that you get back and feel - 1. that you need to reward yourself for having exercised and 2 - starving.
Now I've taken up rock climbing and got back into cycling, both of which are way more fun than the gym ever was. You CAN do it, but maybe slavery to the gym isn't always the way. Hope that helps!

[PacificDogwod]

Change your diet for weight loss, go to the gym for strength/fitness.

2 different (albeit related) things.

[RavioliOnToast]

I hope that initially going to the gym will make me feel better about myself and then the better eating will fall into place. I feel ready to make a change now. I've been trying to go to bed earlier to give me a bit more energy. I'm really not very good at dieting actually. I want to be a good role model for my kids. Show them how to feel good about themselves. I am a sahm atm (start new job in September part time) and I pick when we're at home and I do the shopping. I have a bad relationship with food and always comfort eat so I want to break that cycle first.

[HairsprayQueen]

I booked my holiday 15 months ago and have lost the grand total of 0 (actually might have even put on half a stone).

I'm determined to get on it after the holiday and just do it now, it's gone on long enough!

Like you I'm a comfort eater and have the whole 'let's be good from Monday, fuck up by Wednesday' cycle as regular as clockwork in my life.

My plan is to not actually start anything, I just want to eat 'normally' but smaller portions and less snacking to stop the whole deprivation/binge pattern and start focussing on quality food, stuff I really enjoy, rather than eat out of habit and greed.

Anyway to sum up that ramble- I'll be joining you in a similar thing op if you want moral support!

[RavioliOnToast]

I fall off the wagon all the time, if I'm a bit sad or stressed one day then I eat. The days are long and I guess it's something to fill it with.

When do you go away Hairspray

[PacificDogwod]

I could have pretty much written every post of yours, Ravioloi - except that my youngest is now 6. I've never been 'slim', and my weight has been up and down (overall up!) in the last 30+ years.

This kind of approach has changed all that. I have totally changed how I look at food, I now eat delicious food that I like, whenever I fancy something I'll have something and I do not feel deprived. I do not think of it as a 'diet'. I've been vaguely doing a bit of 'eating less carbs' and 'intermittent fasting' aka 'don't eat until lunch' (who knew this was A Thing?!) for 16/12 or so, I have lost about 3 dress sizes and I cannot see myself going back to my old ways.
Oh, and the only 'exercise' I get is walking the dog and cycling to work - sounds more impressive than it is as it's less than a mile

[Bamboofordinneragain]

Spot on, Pacific. No more 'D' words. They don't work, amd they make you miserable. Better food, and a bit less of it. Go on, OP, it will be SO worth it if you can do this.

[HairsprayQueen]

Rav I go next week- all inclusive so that should go well

[RavioliOnToast]

Ooh lucky you! Are you going anywhere nice? We're self catering, it's an 18-30 holiday. I'm sure whatever I don't eat in calories I'll end up drinking! are you going anywhere nice?

[HairsprayQueen]

Sorry, I just saw your reply, this thread seemed to drop off my threads I'm on but really quickly!

I am back from holiday (I went on a cruise, far too much food and drink was ingested!) so going to start to reign things in a bit from tomorrow- I'm not sure whether to weigh myself or not bother if I'm trying to become less wonky in my thoughts.

How are things going for you?

[RavioliOnToast]

I got back from holiday in Saturday am. I am at my all time heaviest.

I skipped breakfast today (unintentionally) and for lunch I've had tuna pasta salad - loads of salad, not a lot of pasta, for tea I'm having garlic and herb chicken and veggies. I've bought a 2l Bottleof water and will refill every night and drink it all every day. I am absolutely stuffed. Just about to make a Cuppa and sit and relax while dd2 is napping before the school run.

I'm going to start yoga onxe a week and start 30 day shred again 2-3 times a week. I'm not starting them both together though as I won't stick to them. Trying to eat healthier first gradually reducing portion sizes and then start exercising . I'll do exercise in this 2 hour gap while baby naps but I start 2 weeks full time training next week so will leave it until after then before I start. I am really determined this time. I don't want to die. Weight yesterday - 16 stone 10.5 lbs. fucking disgusting.

[HairsprayQueen]

Likewise on being the heaviest ever, I am scared of the consequences of it now.

I joined weight watchers online today- I know I said I was going to be sensible by myself and come out of the 'diet' bubble but I don't think I can do it by myself, I have so far to go and no boundaries on my own.

I've lost all my focus on exercise but I really want to get back into it as I know it's good for my mind more than anything else.

You sound like you have a good mindset Rav, here's to a great start and being healthy!

[RavioliOnToast]

Well it was all going swimmingly, until I found the giant galaxy in the cupboard...

I feel rubbish today. Mainly this afternoon, took the Mormon after pill this morning and feel really down and awful about it. I feel sick and sweaty- coincidence? Probably...

I have no control when I'm sad.

[HairsprayQueen]

How are you doing today Rav?