Hoping for some advice. Has anyone ever got to the point where you literally hate yourself. More specifically the way you look?
I went and had some photos taken of my beautiful kids a few days ago and the photographer insisted I be in the photos. I was reluctant as I know I'm overweight. I just didn't realise how overweight I am until today when the photos came back.
I'm horrified. I've put son much weight on that I can't bear to look at the pictures with me in them. I just sat and cried all night.
I'm 5ft 2 so not tall by any stretch of the imagination and I must be about 15 stone. I'm guessing here but last time I did slimming world I was 14 st ish and I'm much bigger now. Had a baby 5 months ago (no excuse as have always been fat). Also have a 3.5yr old ds.
Just can't seem to get out of the pattern of eating whatever I want. I have only ever stuck to one thing in my whole life which was quitting the cigs but as a 30 a day smoker of 13 years it left a whole that I couldn't fill.
I struggle with my health as during the winter months I get recurrent tonsilitis and my throat swells to the point where I find it very difficult to eat anything I can't mush up. So far since early December I have had 7 bouts of it and so life is quite difficult. I feel tired a lot so making home cooked meals can be hard (especially at the moment as I'm constantly sick)
I am hoping being as upset as I am today might spur me on to make a change but I just feel so low I'm scared I won't stick to it.
My kids deserve better than to watch their mum eat crap all day and my eldest has been weighed recently and is apparently perfectly within his weight range but I worry he is starting to pick up mine and dh's bad habits.
Any words of advice from you lovely mumsnetters? I just don't know how to make myself care about how crap I look and how to drag myself through the days when I feel poorly.
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SnookyWookyWooWoo · 16/02/2016 23:48
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