I’ve just done my first 8 weeks as a trainee teacher (School Direct, English). For context, I’ve been teaching 10 hours a week since day one and don’t have a host teacher/anyone in lessons with me.
People at school seem to think I’m doing well, but I’m starting to feel like I hate it. The things I’m struggling most with are:
- Behaviour: I have a very challenging Y9 class that I often struggle to control. They usually reduce me to tears at least once a week.
- Workload: I get to work for 7.30, leave at 6. I grab something to eat when I get home, then carry on working until I go to bed. I only get chance to read at the weekend. I hate that. I don’t know if this is what I want from my job. I fantasise about having a job in an office that stops when I leave the building.
- Pressure: The expectations are so, so high and I feel like I will never be able to achieve them.
At this point in time, I can’t imagine doing my NQT year. In fact, I fantasise about just quitting my training year...
I don’t know what I’m asking from this post. Just views on your training year/teaching in general, I suppose. What would you do if you were me?
Thanks for taking the time to reading. I appreciate it.